Speechless.

It has been five months and two days. You'd think I would have moved on by now, at least that is what Cody told me. He and Kristin split, which anyone could have seen that coming from a mile away. Already, he has yet another girl. In a way, I almost feel sympathy towards Kristin, seeing as she is being replaced so quickly. I was in her shoes just a little over four months ago. I really have tried to "move on", but I cannot. Pictures and notes haev been put away, yet I still feel strongly connected. Cody told me that if I didn't move on, we would no longer be friends. Eevn though life isn't fair, I still foudn that to be almost heartless. Someone cannot simply forget abotu someone. Days like these, I do regret having sex with him, and giving him my all. I love him, yet, I do not think he cares for me as he says.

Last night, after he and I argued, I broke down. I have not shed tears like that since I was a child. They were tears of bitterness, hurt, loneliness, and love. My body shook and heaved to the point I was ill. Still, I feel no better. My heart still hurts and I am slowly starting to feel replaced, again.

Thirty-two days, and we will be reunited. Honestly, I am scared.