Saturday.

what's on my mind today

Life is going pretty fast. This is the longest I've lived anywhere, and I've known my best friend since the day I moved in 6 years ago. 4 years from now, I'll be in college. I don't even know what college I want to go to. How am I supposed to decide now? I hardly know what I'm interested in. I kind of know what I like, but how on earth am I supposed to apply that to a potential career? I'm afraid that if I work for what I'm passionate about, it will slowly bring me down to the point where I hate it. I don't want that. Music is important to me. I want to keep it that way. What if I pick a college that doesn't fit me? I'll be stuck with a s****y situation and a lot of money blown on something I didn't like to begin with.

 

And friends. Which ones are important to me? It's hard to separate the ones I want to keep and the ones that are temporary. Do they even mean that much to me? Yeah. Of course. But will I be proud of the things I've done in 5 years? In 10 years? Maybe I should just sit at home all day, I'd never regret anything. Except wasting my life away in an empty house. We all make mistakes, it's part of growing up. It's how you learn. Learning is fantastic. School helps you learn. I want to know everything. Mysteries are thrilling. The unknown makes me feel alive. But it makes me want to know more. It's like a trailer for this fantastic movie that I won't ever see. Maybe someone will, but not me.

 

What happens when we die? Leave religion out of it. What do you think happens? Do we float around, waiting to be found? Or do we stay in the dirt? Does everything go black? Or does it fill up with light? It's another one of those things that we'll never know about, because obviously when it happens and we find out, we can't tell anyone. We'll live and then hope for the best when it comes to an end. There are so many religions to choose from. Or not to choose from. Somebody out there has to be right in all that mess. Or maybe not. Maybe religions are just an invented concept and not a discovery. Maybe it's just hope. Who knows?

 

Now that I think about it, I'm not so sure I want to know all the answers to the questions I think about. It's kind of like when someone tells you a lie for your sake, so that you don't worry or panic.

 

Ignorance is bliss.

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[cest la vie]

This thing called "Life" is just a crazy whirlwind of questions, isn't it?. As a journal writer, i connected with your style on this piece. I really like it quite a bit!!

[Melbell19]

I sure hope I am not a temporary friend...
But not be for just putting your thoughts down in writing..