The Realizations Haunt me

A Poem by Abigail Alliah

For Vinny. Who else?

Why am I this way?
I cannot see so cannot say
And the anguish on my face
Should tell I can't go on this way.

But you, you still don't care!
Though you've seen how well i've fared
But understanding you don't dare
So for you i've halted all my care.

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But when it hits me so,
When the words just start to flow
My pretty words to you they go
And my own heart betrays me so

You're the best thing that i've found
Ultimately renowned
But to me you spare no sound
And then confusion my mind found

You're in my thoughts these nights
Becomings sure does say it right
Constant abandonment has stung so much,
i've given up the fight.

It may not seem I even try,
But I'm stumbling every stride

Because I lack a willing guide

And don't know how to heal inside.

Its not the truth, its not a lie

But I do know that time will tell
Of what's been putting me through hell
The words are coming pretty well
Though I shouldn't need them, can't you tell?

So these short poems are all you face
Of all my wrath that isn't hate.
I'm slowly seeing why I wait
For you more than I do for faith.

I'm lost but start differing 'tween
achievements and the big mistakes.