Part II: June 2015 to January 2016

Afterthought discussing the journey of my friendship with my "big bro" and bestfriend, "Teddy", over twenty-one months and what ultimately led to our demise.

Disclaimer: Names have been changed to protect the identity of "Teddy" and other people involved.

     "The Big Blowup" is what we call it for everyone involved. Happened on 6/18/15. He advertising his breakup with Sugar and newly changed relationship status on Snapchat and Instagram and I put on my SC story, "Nobody cares about relationship statuses anymore", obviously joking. Then the next morning, he snapped me a video going off saying he never liked me, I was gay, and we were never friends. That hurt and still do a bit because I was just joking. The next day, his older sister texted me going off too saying why I was talking about him. Alveoli and Television also had small roles in it but nothing too serious.

     Consequently, all four of us agreed to go to a lock-in at Ignite before we fell out but Television made us agree to be civil (at the time, Teddy and Television liked each other, but he was talking to her best friend Alveoli = but that's a whole different story). Television's mama took us all and she knew about me and Teddy so she put us on the spot and basically told us to forgive and forget because we are too good of friends to keep arguing. So when we got there, Teddy and I talked and he told me he didn't mean what he said and he was sorry. He said he felt I was the only person he could trust other than fam, and it kind of hurt him that I was "mocking" him. We were back bros again and we were talking the whole night.

     A week later, school starts and everything is out the window. He doesn't care anymore and we were on/off cool 'til maybe November and I was like this isn't going anywhere so I distanced myself. Then Josh died, I had a new change of heart because I saw Kevin crying so it made me cry, so I had to go up to him and he fell in my arms. Hardest time, I swear. I texted him later and for the rest of the year (two weeks left) saying how we need to let go of it all because no one is guaranteed. I didn't get a text back until NYD on the way home from church. He told me he thought about what I said and I was right, but he didn't care who he has now or who talks to him. I respect that, and we agreed to cool/civil like I am with Klondike since we fell out in November too. Not entirely friends nor enemies because too much happened to come back from.

     After a couple weeks into January 2016, he started acting cray and I called it once and for all. Nobody deserves disrespect like I received ever and he didn't care. After a while, neither did I. I feel nothing towards him now. No hate, no love, no appreciation... just nothing.

     Sometimes I see him and miss what we had because it had great potential to be something you tell your kids about but it didn't work out that way. Penultimate, our personalities would never mix the way it did before The Big Blowup. I talked to my ma about it and she said Klondike was always the better friend to me even though we fell out a lot and he had a slick mouth. He respected and supported me. However, we can't get that way either because we're just so far down two different paths.

Now that's the full story.

Author's Note

100% true story of what happens when two very different people with two highly different personalities become best friends and then bitter enemies, not being able to find a middle (August 2016)