First Goodbye

Let me hold you in my arms love,

   Let me look into your eyes

Let my mind believe, as my heart still does, that

  we never said that first goodbye.

 

The one that my mind told me I would forget in

   time;

The one that my heart wouldn't let me.

My heart wouldn't let me believe anything, but that I

  was yours and you were mine.

It's strange how in order to feel closer to someone

   you must fall further into something else.

 

My mind told me distance could cure it,

   like a disease, it consumed me,

              made me so different.

With fever-like delusions my days turned to dreams

 and in them I began to want to stay.

 

Surely this feeling couldn't be real, it had to be

   wrong.

   I must've created it in my mind all along.

 

I let you walk away, without a word

  I watched you shine, and then like a star, shoot across the sky to

     shine somewhere else.

I thought I'd forget you

  When I didn't, how hard I tried.

And now I'm trapped in this nightmare that was once a dream.

 

I followed the rules, I've started again;

 I even refuse to say your name

But I still catch glimpses of you from somewhere in the crowd

I can feel you somehow

And with all that's happened, there's nothing I've regretted more than that first goodbye.

  The one that seems to be the very last.

The one my mind keeps telling me happened long ago,

  but the one my heart still won't say.

 

-s.g.

 

Reviews

[Jack...]

"It's strange how in order to feel closer to someone you must fall further into something else." I think this line right here says it all. This was sad but so much reality is involved in your wiriting today. Sometimes you don't even have to see them in a crowd, your mind sees things that break your heart. Very nicely penned.

[Ifreakinloveyou]

Thank you, I try to be as honest as possible in my writing :) thank you for reading and your encouraging review, I really appreciate it.

[Jack...]

You are very welcome.

[misha]

Very well written. Great job!

[Ifreakinloveyou]

Thank you :)

[Papricoon]

So nice poem...It's like a sad, but still hopeful look at a relationship that needs so little to change a life. Keep writing! :)

[Ifreakinloveyou]

Thank you so much for your nice review :) And thanks for reading!!

[AnthonyTodd]

I am speechless. It's like you pulled a page from my life in this! You captured so many thoughts and emotions familiar to me...especially many that I have revisited in the last few months. Thanks for moving me with them as you have!

[Ifreakinloveyou]

Aww, thank you :)