And why

And I saw the light in your eyes, on the last day before our goodbyes.

 And it wasn't long before the light went dark

 and you looked at me with dead eyes,

 and your love and the light and our life,

 I swear I saw it fade away.

 And now I'm left with shades of grey

 and stuck in an almost empty place,

surrounded by memories I just cant shake.

And I wish I could push past and be really strong, 

but every time I think "this time"

 and we speak,

 and you remind me I'm wrong.

 And I have a memory for every song.

 and now i'm left with heavy words and chorus lines that pick me up and carry me away

 to a better time and a happier day

 and now the music only resonates

 a melancholic soundtrack of what used to be,

 another thing you took from me,

 now that you're gone.

 And I don't know which is heavier,

 empty words or happy memories. 

They build up inside of me,

 lapping at my heart like the waves at sea. 

And similarly,

 there is no end as far as I can see.

 I am a lost sailor navigating

 the bits and pieces of what was once a WE.

 Winds blowing, time slowing, as I search for remnants of me.

Separating the two has been the hardest thing,

 left with tangled shapes and outlines too blurred to see,

 there's no distinguishing,

the you from the me. 

And sometimes it hurts to breathe. 

The pain has no start but it radiates at a constant speed.

 It grows and it weighs down so heavily,

 on my chest, as I gasp and I heave and I fight, like I did for months,

 to make things right,

 before you gave me a speech and left that night,

 shattering what I'd come to know as home in this place away from home.

 And I fight and I push and I rise and I breathe. 

Exhale, and repeat.

I see you now, and you see me

 as someone I thought I'd never be. 

No second glances

 or signs of passion,

 and barely any recognition.

 I search your face and I'm forced to face the truth,

 because all I see is the dark,

 in your eyes,

 where there used to be light, and life, and a hint of a spark.

 And love and laughter and the beginning, a start.

 But now I'm left with an ending.

 And even when we stand together, 

we've never been further apart.