what am I like?

I've started picking up on my own habits.

I've never noticed before, 

but when I like people, I find myself 

mimicking their mannerisms and phrases.

I've never been someone who 

doles out pet names,

but since I met you I call 

everyone I meet 'babe' or 

'mate' or 'pal' or 'hun'.

It's like I became 

a middle aged suburban woman 

without noticing.

I've also realised

how frequently

I am the one who

starts up conversation.

I can't tell if it's because I talk too much

and you can't get a word in edgewise 

or if you just don't want

to talk to me.

And when I say 'you'

it's not the singular form.

It seems to be everyone.

I resolve to keep my mouth shut;

to see if anyone notices my silence;

but I remember the last time I

tried that

and my friendship dwindling

into nothingness.

I wish there was a point to this piece;

wish there were more to my ramblings

than just a sort of rhythmic therapy,

but I have no solutions.

I just finally know what my problems are.