THE PAST - CHAPTER 2

THE PAST - CHAPTER 2

A Chapter by Ice Lady

TGIF and that's all everyone can talk about and they are not joking about it, everyday I look forward to the weekends and simply do nothing. And that is probably the best thing in my life by doing nothing. When I say by nothing meaning me hanging around my own apartment that I pay my rent monthly on time, reading books with music and maybe a cup of coffee or a glass of white wine.Or maybe watching some movies on netflix and whip up some comfort food that I love to eat. That goes my boring yet satisfying weekend during my time off from work.

Sometimes I will just put myself in bed during the day when I am filled up with mixed up emotions thinking about what do I really want in my life. I would come up with a long list of what I want to do before I kick the bucket and that's what people call the bucket list. Something exciting, adventurous and makes me feel like I am living my life and not regret of anything when I die of old age. But at the end of the long day I would just tell myself to come back from my unrealistic thoughts and get back to the cruel reality. People always talk about how beautiful life is and I seriously don't see it that way after what happened to me three years ago. I can never be happy again even after the decision that I made to get myself here.

I did have a happy life, well at least that's what I think. I was born and lived in a small country called Singapore, it was a hustle bustle country. No one has ever stopped working and it is always a busy city. I used to have a great job at this corporate company as a sales manager, I think I love what I do since I never stopped working and so I never thought about  how I was being happy or miserable. I also had a fiance who was Eden, we were engaged for a year before we called off the wedding.

We knew each other ever since we were young, we lived right next to each other and our parents were best friends. So we used to play around with each other a lot when we were little, we went to the same schools as long as I can remember. We started dating when we were 16 years old, he was my first love.

We went to same college and university together as well, after we graduated from university we started talking about getting married and have kids. I was so happy back then, I thought we were meant for each other. He was my soulmate as I was his. We had ups and downs in our relationship like any other but we always make up with each other the next day.

" I love you so much Hope, you know that right? "

" I know, love. I love you too, I can't believe we are getting married!! Can you believe this is happening? Us! Having kids and growing old together."

" Me too, I Thank God everyday for blessing me this wonderful gift to me, What I have done in my past life that deserves you? "

" Well, maybe you bribed him when you were dead during your past life and he pitied your poor soul, so he decided to do this one good thing for you in this life. " I giggled.

He raised his eyebrows and laughed " Well. Maybe that was it! I must be really good at bribing then! Thank God for that!" We would always fill our apartment with our laughter.

These were the kind of conversations we would have everyday and would just end our night talking to each other for an hour or two before we went to bed. Never did I thought, that was the last happy moment we had with each other.

One night he came back drunk from his work, meeting up with his clients talking about this big project they have been working on for months now. He was so drunk that I can't move him to clean him up so I just had to watch him sleeping on the floor in our living area. I walked to our bedroom and got him his pillow, blanket and small bucket just in case he needed it. Got a warm towel to clean his face so he could feel a little bit better when he wakes up. After all that was done, I just sat down beside him, looking at his face that I simply admire and placed my hand on his face. Gave him a good night kiss on his head, while I was getting up and making my way to our bedroom.

**Chimes** ( Two unread messages from his phone)

I struggled to get his phone from his pocket and checked who was it just in case it was important. I opened up the message and there it was.

** Hey Eden, I had fun last night ! I know you were busy today and I missed you so much. Please call me, Love Foxy**

** P.S I forgot to type this in the previous text, I love you ** Had a heart shaped emoji at the back of the message.

I scrolled up what the other messages was and I was disgusted by their sexting and pictures of them having sex.

My eyes were burning with tears in them and my hands were shaking with disbelief. Who the hell is this Foxy? Where did she come from? Thoughts running through my mind back and forth, after all the questioning with myself was done, I slipped his phone back in his pocket and went to bed.

I still remembered how difficult and long the night was, did not sleep at all. I tried my very best not to cry because I didn't want him to know that I knew about this Foxy. Morning arrived and I heard him groaning and trying to get up to get a glass of water. After twenty minutes or so, I heard his footsteps walking towards our room. I turned my back at the door so he wouldn't see my face.

" Are you awake love?"

"Yeah, Good morning, I want to stay in bed for a little longer"

"Good morning and I am sorry I was so drunk last night and Thanks for everything." He planted a kiss on my forehead while I was closing my eyes and pretended to be really sleepy.

" It's alright, are you going to work overtime as well today because I think you should just stay home and rest, or maybe we can catch a movie later, there is this new movie that I have been wanting to watch. What do you say? "  Trying to gather all my courage just to reply him. ( Please God. Please. It is not real.)

" I am really sorry love" Making that face with his most pitiful eyes and said " I have this meeting going on with my bosses at one p.m later and also aiming to get that deal from our clients so we are trying hard to entertain them at a bar in the town area tonight. But don't you worry ! I will make it up to you no matter what, I promise. Okay? "

Putting up a smile that looked as genuine as possible and said " Alright, it's no big deal. We can do it any time again when we want to."

" Great! That's why I love you! Alright, I am going to take a shower and heading off soon"

" So soon? It's only ten , you can get something to eat before you head out for work"

"Nah, It's fine, I am meeting Bryan at the office for our brunch, why don't you get something to eat later, don't worry about me, I will be fine."

"Sure. Why not." I am not sure if my expression revealed anything to him but I was hoping that he wasn't find me out of the ordinary or anything.

He was ready for to head out for work and we always say goodbye to each other at the door.

" Be home early and try not to be drunk, you know I can't do much with you being drunk"

" I will love. I love you."

" I love you too Eden. You know that right? "

" Of course , Bye." We had our last kiss and that was it.

I left the apartment that we lived in together the next day without saying another word to him. I wrote him a letter though, telling him that I found out about his affair with this Foxy ( I mean, really, Foxy? ) and I can't live my life with him pretending that I know nothing. Not to mention how much I loved him and thought he felt the same way too. He tried to track me down by calling me everyday, he went to my parents' place and I heard he even made a scene by crying angrily and trying to rampage my parents' place. My brother literally had to drag him out of the house and refraining himself from punching his face.

I stayed at Marina Bay Sands hotel which we would have our wedding there, well, he wanted it to be a  big and extravagant event, I just went along with him even though I said I wanted a simpler wedding. Never thought I would wind up in this state thinking that how perfect my life was that everyone dreamed of.
                            
Is it me ? Why did he cheat on me? Did I do something wrong so he thought that he should find another woman?  And just how on earth can he acted like he was not doing anything behind my back? Where is his conscious? Is this all a lie? How could he? Why? Just..why?

I woke up and it was already four thirty five p.m. I looked at myself in the mirror, I felt anger rushing through my veins and finally felt the burning sensation that I had in my head. Before I even knew it, I was crying again. Looking pathetic with puffy eyes and a swollen face, thinking why would I deserve this. Wash my face and made my way to the bed, picked up my phone that I put it away for a week. Switching it on and I had one hundred and twelve unread messages, ten voice mails. I wasn't surprised that its either Eden or my parents and since I thought that the messages were too overwhelming, I checked my voice mail.

**Beep**

"Hope! Where are you?! I am looking all over for you! Please call me as soon as you heard this message alright? I love you and I still do! Please, don't give up on me. Don't give up on us! "

"Please. Return my call, I missed you so much. I am sorry for what I have done. Call me back so I can explain, I love you. Always. "

"How could you be so selfish? Can't you just give me another chance? I am a man! I make mistakes too! You know what! Fine! Just give up on everything we worked for! You are selfish as F**k! Do you know that? "

" I am sorry love, I really do! Please. I am begging you! I am worried about you, Please call me, I love you."

I didn't finish listening to all the voice mails he sent. By the time I heard the fourth message, "enough" I mumbled to myself. I remembered I cried so hard that I felt sharp pain on my chest, by relieving that pain, I just cried so hard like a child that needs his milk. After all that crying, I couldn't remember what did I do for the next one week. All I knew was, when I started to function again. I resigned from my job and did not keep in touch with anyone till a month later. 

" Hey Hope! How are you doing? I miss you, can we meet up for a cup of coffee? I have something important to tell you"

It was a call from Amy, my best friend since high school. Eden was my soulmate but Amy is different, she is like my twin sister who was born from another mother. We talked about everything and hides nothing from each other. Amy had a rough time too when she found out about me and Eden, apparently Eden went over to her place and thought that I might be hiding there. In the end she was so furious that she had to threaten him with a vase on her right hand to throw on his head and her phone on the left so she could call the police. I felt bad for her but she made sure that I do not need to feel that way at all. I just love her.

" Okay, sure. Where and time? "

" How about the new shopping mall that just opened near your place? I heard they have a new cafe there too. At let's say about three p.m? "

"Alright, see ya! "

I was on time, Amy always meet me five minutes late and I have no idea why she do that all the time. I ordered ourselves drinks. Five minutes later, I saw this woman hurriedly walking into the cafe and looked around trying to find me, there she is.

" Hey Boo! " She gave me a hug as soon as she sees me.

" Hey, what is it that is so important that you have to see me now?" I asked as I passed her the ice latte that I ordered for her while sipping on my ice Americano.

" Remember I talked to you about this relative of mine in L.A who is hiring a sales executive at his company? Well! He saw your resume and he said he wanted to interview you over skype within these few days! Ahh! I am so happy for you! You will do it right? right? "

" Whoa Whoa wait a minute! Really? But it is L.A we are talking about not K.L (Kualar Lumpur) you know. It is so far away! What about my family? And what about you? You want me to just leave you here and fly all the way to America? "

"Oh come on boo! Its gonna be a new start for you! You can have new life there and not worrying about bumping into that b*****d here! Besides you may have more opportunities for your career there! You never know!

" I don't know about this. I mean I love living here with my family and you. I can't just leave everything behind and start all over for myself, that's selfish of me."

" What? No! We are talking about you here! You live your life and it is not selfish at all! Okay you know what I will give you one day to think this over and let me know by tomorrow alright? It is for the greater good you know. I just can't bear to see you living like this because you deserve to be happy! Also don't you worry about me, I am a mother of two and you cannot imagine how strong I can be. I will definitely miss you but I know you will be happier there. "

" Fine. I will think about it."

" Great! "

That's where I decided and thought that my life was going to be better. 


© 2016 Ice Lady


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