What did I just do?

I found out today that im never going to talk to my best friend ever again.

Hes my:

-Big Brother

-Cupcake head

-Niggah

-Cracka a*s

-Big Buddy

 

He said hes gonna commit suicide by hanging himself and theres nothing I can do to stop it. I dont know what to do. He lives in Florida and I live in Ohio... WHAT CAN I DO?! My parents dont believe it and im crying and devestated. Hes was the one I talk to about everything. He was the one i looked up to. Hes 15, almost 16 and im 13. I love him so muchh.

The worst part?

I had a major crush on him.

Does anyone know what its like to loose your best friend AND the guy you had a crush on all in one? The hug war we planned will never occur, ill never be able to visit him in Palm Beach, ill never be able to physically lay my eyes on his beautiful eyes except in photos. I dont know. This is tearing me apart.

 

Our conversation:

(copying and pasting from Facebook and it wont let me go back farther)

(starting where i told him Kaylee said hes too pretty to die)

Nikita: And kaylee must be another girl who is in it for the damn look's.

I hate people who say

"Oh your too hot to die"

And all this bullshit.

Look's dont f*****g matter.

Me: I know, and she says that shes sorry, and she didnt mean to offend you

Nikita: I dont really care.

Me: and she likes your iPod case xD

im calling you

now

answer me

on here

now

):

Please.?

im

gonna

type

till

u

reply

PLEASE NIGGAH!

Nikita: your not calling you dumbass :/

Oh just your luck

Me: whyy not then?

Nikita: When you said that

This girl who i like

Texted me..

So i'll stay alive for now.

Me: okayy

(My status: I just dont know anymore. I dont know when to believe you and when to not. This is the 3rd time youve done this and it still hasnt happened. I feels like im not a rollercoaster and the only reason im on it is cause i love you. </3 or ♥? Idk.)

Nikita: and it still hasnt happened?

Fine i'll f*****g do it

If your that damn eager to see me die.

Me: ITS NOT ABOUT YOU.

ITS ABOUT DAMION

Im talking about Damion breaking up with Nicole

Nikita: HOW DOES THIS MAKE SENSE THEN

Ohhh...Really..

Maybe your just covering

Me: im not

swear

to

god

DONT

Me: :'(

Me: love you

guess your never gonna talk to me again

no hug wat

*war

and no meating youu

Byee )':

I love you no matter what Nikita, always remember that <3

 

I dont know what to do. HELP ME? D:

Ive lost him no matter if hes alive or dead

I lost him forever ):

I Love You Nikita

RIP Nikita Michael Napalm

No matter if your dead in the ground or walking this Earth

You'll still feel dead in my heart ): </3

Author's Note

This is refering to what just happened with me.

Reviews

[CR8TEME]

Girly, Just remeber...We have the List...when we get our Drivers liseces... We're gonna go to Seattle...(Lauren Lives there) and then go to Palm beach- Then u'll meet him and Make up to him...THEN- We can go parasailing and I can go check out the publishers there as well and we can swim and get me a new coffee mug, and we can tan, and hang out, make fun of the "E NEWS" story thats on, and then go outside at night and listen to the waves...oh and climb the rocks...and the sand dunes every thing....Scuba diving? EVERYTHING.