Have you ever though about ...

Have you ever thought about suicide? Have you ever thought about taking your own life? I have, Many times before. And if you really think about, it would be very easy to do. I mean really just think about it for a while.

Everyone at some point in their life has thought about it. Even if they didn’t want to really do it, they still had some sort of though, even if it is for a second. And the more that you think about it the more that you find different ways to try and do it. There are thousands of ways to try and do it. But the easiest way would have to be pills.

The reason I say that is because everyone has some sort of pills in there house. From pain reliever, to strong stuff that you might get from the doctor. EVERYONE has some sort of pill, and just with those little pills you can do so much damage to yourself.

That’s what I think about all the time. Thinking and knowing that it can be so easy to end life. Knowing that I can end my life at any time I want. I can end my life right after I’m done writing this, I can end it after I take a shower, after I eat, when I get home from school, even if I’m having a good day I can end it.

And to me I honestly think that that’s why I haven’t done it yet. Because of the fact that I know I can do it. Knowing that I can do it whenever I want makes it easier for me not to want to do it. I don’t know if that’s a normal thing, I’m almost positive that it’s not normal. Then again I think that it’s not normal to just sit here while I’m at school at using their laptops to write about suicide instead of doing my work. But then again I don’t really think that I’ve been a normal person.

No one is ever really normal. Everyone has something about then that makes then seen different to other people. And I guess always thinking about death and ways to die and being curious about people killing other people is just my thing. Most people think that always thinking about death is wrong and that it makes me some kind of devil person or something. But I’m not. I can promise you that I’m. Then again you don’t know me so you don’t have to believe me or not. I don’t think that I really care what people to think about me. Well at least over the internet. Because in real life things are always different. But of course like in real life I got off track. I tend to do that a lot. Anyways yeah suicide. Ummm I think I’ve said everything that I’ve wanted to say.