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That’s what had happened just before and right now I’m sitting on the park bench with my two little monsters. Meet my brothers �" Ryann who is 7 years old and Erikk, who is only 9 months, yes he’s just a baby. You might be thinking ‘how pathetic of their parents to leave her with two little kids all on their own’ and yes you’re absolutely right. I was thinking that too. Oh and meet me I’m Alexx and 15 years old and I have absolutely NO IDEA how to look after a 9 month old baby! 7 year old is okay, but 9 month old sounds a bit smelly, how am I gonna change Erikk’s diapers? So many thoughts have been invading my mind. I have been sitting here for atleast about 2 and half hours now. And the whole time I have been thinking, thinking, thinking, and thinking! Here are a few of my thoughts:

1.         How am I gonna feed my little monsters?

2.        Where will we stay?

3.        How are we gonna survive?

4.       Is there any way I can try and sneak back into mum’s house to get some of our stuff and Erikk’s diapers, especially Erikk’s diapers?

5.       If I go to the police will they help or just make my parents get more raged?

6.       If I go to Jessie’s house will she let me stay the night with my lil bro’s?

7.       Probably not, if I went to some hotel and offered to help out for a room instead would they consider?

8.       Not likely, if only they were much nicer now, all they care about is money! I think I will try and sneak back home.

9.       I’ve snuck OUT soo many times, shouldn’t be THAT hard sneaking IN.

10.     I was starving I wonder if Erikk and Ryan were hungry?

11.       How am I supposed to amuse them?

12.      YOU KNOW WHAT!? I’M GUNNO GO HOME RIGHT NOW!

13.      Plan A: Get inside the house yell at mum that I’m just here to get my stuff and I’ll be gone straight after! Yeah that sounds cool if I can get myself to do that.

14.     Plan B: Mum will surely be going out soon so I’ll just wait until she does hide just around the corner of the main door and stop it before it shuts tight, yeah simple or I’ll just sneak in after that either way both work!

Soo those were just a FEW of my thoughts. I’m staring very hard at our, I mean, my ex-mums house. Yup I had officially broken her from my heart; seriously it’s not that hard to do when she acts like THAT! I asked Ryann to look after Erikk for a bit, Ryann being a total help at that point agreed and wished me luck, I gave him a kiss on the cheek and strutted towards the house. I swung the door wide open; it was unlocked as it always was, I yelled my little phrase that I had been practising for such a long time. I was a bit more confident than I thought I would be; now that was cool. Ex-mum didn’t even care, she just yelled back ‘you better be quick’ rather than ‘oh honey come back I’m so sorry’. I ran in my room grabbed my travelling carry bag and stuffed it with the essentials:

1.         Two pairs of clothes and undies (in case we found a shower somewhere)

2.        My hairbrush and bobby pins and hair ties

3.        My little lucky bear

4.       My very prized necklace that I had gotten from someone very special (whose house I was also planning on going to)

5.       My tooth brush and a full packet of toothpaste

6.       My moisturiser! NEVER forget moisturisers!

7.       A few books for entertainment

8.       My wallet and my mini piggy bank, we’re going to need money

9.       And some girly essentials … ya know… yeah.

Then I ran to Ryann’s room to grab a few of his things and packed it into his little Thomas and Friends bag:

10.     His little piggy bank (we were gonna run outta money soon enough)

11.       A few of his clothes and undies

12.      Some of his favourite toys

13.      His PSP and charger (if it went flat I would be the worst sister ever to not pack the charger)

And then into Erikk’s room to grab a huge box of diapers and baby wipes (I knew I’d need them!)

14.     A few clothes in case he made a few smelly mistakes in his clothes

15.     His little rattlesnake

16.     And his blanket.

Okay I’m pretty sure that THAT would be enough. I mean if we were lucky enough to score a hotel room maybe we could ACTUALLY USE this stuff. We had to travel light I would feel pretty bad if Ryann had to carry a tonne on his back and not get anywhere. Trust me it’s actually a pretty hard life here in the middle of nowhere! We weren’t living in a city or anything otherwise we would have gotten a foster home by now, but no, we were living in the middle of nowhere somewhere in a state called Kansas. I sprinted downstairs and screeched at my ex-mum “YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF!” and got out of there before she could do anything.