"Unwanted"

This life, I never wanted it to be

I always wanted to be a kid

Never grow up and never care

But it always ends like this

As a kid, I always cry

Being burden by things people around me are unhappy of

I really never know what true happiness is

I was always broken

Up until I realize that pain made me

It became my happiness

My pain maybe to others are shallow

My pain may be consistent

Always the same problems

Or is it just I who can't move on

Additional sorrows pilling up my head

F**k, why does it always have to be like this

Being attached to someone my weakest point in life

Being left behind pulled me down and brought my anxieties up

Being unable to be loved made me thirst for more

Until I became a pleaser

At last, while everything is grey and black

He came into my life

Out of nowhere I just smiled

Everywhere he touches brought back to life the dying parts of me

I was used to all of these

Until everything changed between us

Then upon realizing this change

Turned me into a monster capable of destroying

Though I destroyed everything

I may be destroyed by him

Still, I f*****g asked for pardon

Allowing to be fool and wait for nothing

Then I realized that there will, maybe, always nothing

But he was, is and will always be my everything

From my brokenness he saved me

That maybe the reason why God wanted to punish me

He will get angry upon reading this

He will hate me for saying such things

But I can't keep being silent no more

I'm bursting out deep inside

Reviews

[sette]

the pain of loving someone can make us stupid or foolish but then we learned a lot from it

[Restless_Heart]

Definitely..

[Restless_Heart]

Sometimes it breaks us but it will help us to become strong. :) thanks for the review.

[sette]

you are most welcome