THIS IS MY TIME

A story of revenge that runs only in my head.

I curse you
And everyone who does fucked-up things like you
You took away what had been given to me
My innocence, my purity

Out of many people
I don't know why it would be you
We belonged with the same blood line
Yet what you did to me, you didn't mind

I was so young and dreamy
And you were old enough to guide me
all I know is that I could trust you
Yet you took advantage of me

The mem'ries, still fresh
As you move your hand inside my dress
You kissed me, harassed me
Looked into me saying nothing
But that look served as a warning

I was scared
I was ashamed
I fear about what would happen
If I spill out your dirty secret
So I hid myself under silence


Years were added
And I grew old
Old enough to think about what had happened
Old enough to stand up for myself

And now I saw you
Staring at me like a beast just like before
But I won't let anything happen again
This time, it would be myself who I will defend

No one was around and you drew near me
You held my hand and I yelled loud enough
"This time you will not be the one who'll be satisfied!"

In a snap, you we're lying down
Face down on the floor,
Blood all around

I was laughing
Loud and proud
I continued my insanity
When someone came around

Yells and cries
Echoed the room
Questions of how's and why's
Ran through my system

I do not know the answer,
I do not know what happened
Moments later
Everything sank in

He took away my innocence
I took away his life
How could they say that I was wrong
when it felt so right?

They caught me off guard
There's nothing left to do
No more time to hide


After all, for so many years
I got what I want
So I just raise my hands
As I dropped the knife.

Reviews

[Stef Outsiders]

This is emotionally deep, felt the pain, the anger, frustration in this poem, couldn't tell anyone in fear, but suffered enough till the character were older and could do something about it. Rape, can make you do crazy things because justice isn't enough!
I hope this didn't happen to you, but brave for sharing! thank you! and well done!

[Celeste21]

A tremendously devastating situation packed w/ emotional angst. This is a very great piece, probably one of your best. I hope this isn't based off any truth...

[Michael Jarrell]

I LOVE that. As a volunteer for a sexual assault hotline, this poem makes me happy. To read about a victim getting revenge and overpowering their abuser... it just feels good. Writing has always been a great form of release, and I'm glad that (if you have been abused) you are able to writre as a form of therapy.

Hope you are doing well; If you need anything, I'm always here to talk. :)

[Sharon Kinsella]

Baby I'm so sorry that the one that would protect you would hurt you so. Such a healthy write and read.

Very cathartic and healing.

Blessed be.

[Alicka]

This poem had a good flow to it. I think you did a good job, capturing how the character felt.

[X-DY]

One word: "fierce"

[just take a breath]

wow. just... wow. this poem had me reading faster and faster to the end and i could feel the suspense. there isn't anything id fix(:

[stellasautelle]

Excellent work.. I loved it. The words flow nicely. :)

[J.S. Wayne]

"Wrath is no vice when inflicted upon the deserving."
Akroma, Angel of Wrath, Magic: The Gathering
While I sincerely hope this is not based on actual events, the imagery really conveys the helplessness that the survivor of such a heinous crime feels, and the rage that inevitably follows it. This is very well done; there are a few wording oddities that interfere with the flow, but they're not serious.
You really are an excellent poet; I've GOT to get on reading the rest of your work!

[Worms]

amazing job
if you can't defend yourself then who can defend you?
really hope that this didn't actually happen
and this is why I hate hanging out with writers all the time
you never know what's reall and what you have to worry about
anyway a beautiful piece