Fighting For Happiness

I'm tired of all the bullshit in my life. I want it just to end...

I walk through life smiling
Nodding
Saying I'm okay
When really
I want to scream
They only see what I show them
I hide
Who I really am
No one likes a cry baby
A b***h
So much crap has happened
So much pain
Its hard to smile
And mean it
To laugh at all the joke
About me
You wonder why I get mad
Why I get upset
Well the jokes aren't funny anymore
I'm not laughing
These fake smiles are fading from my face
I don't know
Who my real friends are anymore
If I even have any
They hurt me
Use me
So I'm done
With all the fake people
That pain I've felt
I won't let it happen again
Three years was enough
I won't take anymore
I left that all behind me
So f**k off
If you don't like it
I don't need you
Never have
Never will
I'm standing here
Fighting for happiness
If I have to I'll do it alone
That's how it has always been
I'm not afraid of it anymore
To be alone
It doesn't scare me
But I know I will smile again
And mean it
I will laugh with warmth in my heart
Once more
The time will come
When I can show them
The people who actually care
Who I really am
I will walk through life smiling
Nodding
Saying I'm okay
And I will be
Someday...
I will be