Cold

This goes out to my mom...I love you!!!

         Fear so strongly hits her, she was going to die. There was nothing she could do to stop it. She couldn't breathe, move and she was sinking quickly. The water felt like tiny razors hitting her and her lungs felt like they were on fire. She laughed at that, it was ironic. Her lungs were on fire and she was surrounded by water. How could this be happening? Why?
         It was over she was going to die. There was no one that could save he. Even if someone found her in time there was nothing left to live for. She had wanted this, begged for it. Now she was getting what she wanted. She should be happy right now, but all she could think was I'm not ready.
         The car sank farther down and she tried one more time to break the window. Her muscles were stiff and it was hard to do, but she backed away from the window. Then she kick, hard with both legs and It broke. The pressure pulled her out into the freezing water. She had done it, she was free of that horrid car.
          She tried to move, to swim up, but she couldn't. Her body wouldn't move, she couldn't feel anything now, but the cold. It was to late, she had been so close to being able to tell her mom she loved her. The fight they had kept replaying in her mind. It wasn't her mothers fault, she didn't ask for cancer. It was something she couldn't control. She knew that, but she was upset and she said thing she hadn't meant. She wished for a due over. The last thing she had said to her made her want to cry. " I hate you! Why are you leaving me? Why? I hate you! I hate you!" She knew she was crying, frozen tears.
          If only she hadn't gotten in to that fight. She wouldn't of ran out to the car, she wouldn't of been crying and she would of seen that dog before it was to late. It was so cold and everything was going black now. She couldn't breathe anymore, but it was okay. She was okay with dying. She just wished she could of told her mother she was sorry and she loved her. She let the water take her, let the cold consume her. It was over, this was the end. " I love you mommy. I'm so sorry." Her mother opened her eyes with tears falling down her checks.