moment to moment

counting down until quitting time, or until I can be me and not the 9-5 me

alarm clock off ---> to alarm clock on
ticking off structured items
neatly constructed
and carried out
moment to moment
calm, calculation
..satisfied customer
all the while
the internal pressure cooker
is on high
it bubbles and steams
stewing god knows what
hissssing steam
until that thing
that devilish, delightful thing
dominates the moment
pressure cooker is ready to explode
and then, oh and then
that wild moment
giving in
letting go
perfection interupted
for one delicious, wild moment