Misery Cocooned in Petulance

Misery Cocooned in Petulance

These jokes are lies

deep inside i want to die

As i make my joke my little funny

my emotions run no where

shelled inside none are aware

of how i really feel and my state of mind

they all just think im fairly kind

i keep it that way for their sake

but ive made a horrible mistake

My laughter the joyful petulance

it faded with the coming of adolescence

I make you laugh until you cry

and i think to myself why?

I give you happiness

the internal conflict i try to dismiss

My goddamn misery cocooned in gust of petulance

childish actions i never meant

 

Trapped inside a death blow to my gut

i try to escape in false joy but...

i can never escape

this doom inside i helped create

A little happy boy oblivious to truth

a little dumb a*s youth

i pretended to be so you wouldnt see

the black pool of hidden misery

Its getting harder to hide

its a reality i can no longer deny

life isnt all its cracked up to be

with laughter and little happy people

a sad miserable place you'll see

is the life laid out for you and me

inside of my soul i made a sack

and now my emotions leak out the back

a desolate miserable hell of a life

with liberty and misery in all

My laughter the joyful petulance

it faded with the coming of adolescence

I make you laugh until you cry

and i think to myself why?

I give you happiness

the internal conflict i try to dismiss

My goddamn misery cocooned in gust of petulance

childish actions i never meant

...enjoy

Author's Note

typos are a possibity again =P