forks

about not knowing which choice to make

At this fork in my road,

unsure which to take

Whether it's left or right,

from both you're away

The road you were on

was the one I already passed

So if I want to see you,

it's like I have to turn back

Yet that path was never smooth

Full of bumps and gaps

and a few of the potholes

were pitfall traps

Maybe I fell in

because my eyes were too high

I saw a million stars in the sky

and I thought I could only win

I held a relic from my travels

from a happier time

yet I felt a tinge of shame

like having it was a crime

I could tell you I love you,

but what would it mean?

Your eyes have been closed

so it's not like you would see

Now I doubt your intent

and now I doubt your heart

which hurts me so much

because it's my favorite part

Your huge bright eyes

and your song-like voice

while both so beautiful

are not my first choice

It's almost a shame

to see a heart so big

one I wanted to reach,

but it's one you hid

If I look or turn back,

will I turn to stone?

I ask because I almost fear losing you

more than I fear the unknown

Some signs and whispers I see

seem to good to be true

I've been told the clouds will clear,

but I still don't see you

I can't strike you from my mind

and I can't make myself forget

It's like memories of you come up

When I think I'm on the mend

I'm not sure I know the truth

or if it's something I'll ever see

I don't know why union is so elusive

So close yet far out of reach

Author's Note

opinions welcome