Why Start Now

The effort I put

to try to have a relationship with you

you shoved it away

every time I tried

Why do you try now

you think I won't shove?

you think I've forgotten what you did?

Trying to tell me what to do

How to live my life

I'm not stupid like you think I am

I'm no genius like her 

but, she has the one thing I always wanted

a mother

You told me 

"Change this and you'll be beautiful"

"Marry him you'll have money"

"Get this job you'll have money"

"Buy a big house"

"Do this"

"Do that"

I never had a mother

You've never told me that I did great

You've never encouraged me to do anything

and now you expect a relationship?

You may be my mother in the sense of birth

but, you never played the part of mother

You weren't there for my middle school ceremony

You weren't there for awards ceremonies

You weren't there for so much

So why should you start now.

Reviews

[Shiningwolf]

I agree with Fuel...my dad was the same way when I grew up. It was sad. I can relate to this piece very well. Good job!

[Awkward]

I know exactly how you feel! I went through the same thing with my dad. It's a horrible thing to live without someone who should play a big role in your life. Great poem!