Losing Fight

I fight the urge,
And try to purge,
these thoughts from my mind.
Why cant I see,
she doesnt want me,
and let my heart just die.
As she sits so near,
I fight the tear,
that threatens to tear me apart.
I look at the face,
and forget the time and place,
I just want to kiss her til shes mine.
But that she is not,
my feels as if its been shot,
and i must keep the pain on the inside.