Am I?

A Poem by zaneybear

I'm filled with the memories,
the words you left behind,
the things you said, the lies you told.
I need to free myself from the empty space,
the space you set aside just for me.
I'm in your control.
Wrapped around your pinky,
your controlling my every move>
I have no say as to what I want,
you control it all, you control the truth.
Making people believe what you want them to
secretly no one believed,
not even the girls you play.
now im on my own without you,
without you i have no life,
You were my blood.
My blood flowing through my viens.
My blood spilling on the floor.
My blood pooling in the tub.
My blood clouding my judgement.
What more can my blood do?
It can write your name on my arm.
It can write your name in the water,
but when the water drains,
you vanish.
Leaving me wishing it was real.
But this is just poetry.
None of this real.
It's just my thoughts, written like a diary.
I can't tell the difference anymore.
The difference between reality and sanity?
Can you tell me?
Am i insane?