meaning?

meaning?

A Poem by child of God

I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
But there are no excuses ......
I can't compromise over truth
No never
I'm scared aren't I?
I'm scared nothing has changed
Here I am ....a jr in high school.....
And I am still the same
It's like we're all creaters of habitat
Trapped in a glass cage of
the familiar, spinning, laughing ,drowning
Maybe it's not that bad
Depression is familiar
Dispair is an old freind-
Always around but you get use to them
And in time you would take them over nothing
Who would I be if I wasn't plagued by sleepless nights cutting cravings and pointless depression?
I would not be it has lived in me so long that
That the face I try harder and harder to put on ever day becomes the lie
That is not me anymore
I do not know am or
Would be
Can be
Why am I here?
Is this God's work?
Am I supposed to suffer to help others?
Is he testing my faith right now ?
Did I have to go through all of this ?
I do not know
I can do this I can slowly kill this voice
That is screaming in my chest
And it would grow smaller and smaller
In tell it she speaks no more ....


© 2015 child of God


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Really good work, great questions and I have answers.
Are you supposed to suffer to help others? YES
Is this a test of faith? YES
Did you have to go through all this? YES
The bible, warns of long suffering over 300 times in new testament alone.
It's always a test, life is a test.
Going through tough times is God's way of building your character, Deuteronomy 33:20-21
so I hope that can be of some help.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

child of God

9 Years Ago

Thanks I'm trying I don't think I'm ready for the age 18
Jamestown

9 Years Ago

You will be fine, you are not the only one who has or does feel that way, becoming
a young .. read more
child of God

9 Years Ago

Thanks yea your right Sr I should be excited about my bday being so close not scared



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Is this God's work?
Am I supposed to suffer to help others?
Is he testing my faith right now ?

It is that I don't believe so much but in Karma. If we are here for the work of God, that's fine let's do it, why thinking then. Do as your heart want. Everyone is expecting with someone, but do what you want, what you expect with yourself. It is my thinking.
Everything will be fine with flow of time, So enjoy your time dear.

Posted 9 Years Ago


child of God

9 Years Ago

Thank you for reading
voice of reason is God speaking
listen to internal

power of your writing compels me

Posted 9 Years Ago


child of God

9 Years Ago

Thank you for checking it out I appreciate it
God does have a plan for you. Your writing is so amazing. You and your writing have helped me in this time of trouble. Just hang in there. God knows what he is doing.

Posted 9 Years Ago


child of God

9 Years Ago

Thank you kid
Jamestown must have it right he has done his homework and studied his Bible well. Read on. best wishes and its called growing pains in life I lived through them and so did my daughters who are now in there twenties and still growing.

Posted 9 Years Ago


Really good work, great questions and I have answers.
Are you supposed to suffer to help others? YES
Is this a test of faith? YES
Did you have to go through all this? YES
The bible, warns of long suffering over 300 times in new testament alone.
It's always a test, life is a test.
Going through tough times is God's way of building your character, Deuteronomy 33:20-21
so I hope that can be of some help.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

child of God

9 Years Ago

Thanks I'm trying I don't think I'm ready for the age 18
Jamestown

9 Years Ago

You will be fine, you are not the only one who has or does feel that way, becoming
a young .. read more
child of God

9 Years Ago

Thanks yea your right Sr I should be excited about my bday being so close not scared

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