Not enough

I am not always depressed there are good days-

Days when I can taste the sunshine on my tongue

Or stare in awe at the beauty of life

I am not going to let my self be controlled by my own emotions

I can will these feelings away

I can do it by myself

I am in control

There’s something flawed

Inside of me

I don’t feel right

It’s as if I’m sick

 Somehow …

Is there really anything decent inside of me?

What am I?

There is something wrong with me

What’s the point in this?

It’s like I’m trapped in a play

We’re all just running through a script

It’s not enough

I just want to be ok

I know I’ve been happy before …

But it never lasts why that is?

I can’t force myself to be alright

I just can’t

I keep sinking

Is doing what’s right the way to happiness?

Is the majority the judge of right and wrong?

Cutting is looked down on by many…

But looked at by many and more…

Dose that mater?

Is society becoming more and more twisted and infected by something?

I am nothing but a question mark in a period society

And we all know there is no place for a question mark in a period society �"

O no, no, no we all must fall in line,

Am I still on the road?

Ha ha kid you left the road a long time ago…

Where am I going I have the slightest idea

 Empty that’s what I feel

What is the meaning of this world?

Why do we create?

 Fulfillment?

Meaning?

Justification of ones existents

I am not creative

I am weak

Pathetic

And petty

I struggle but create not

I battle but utter nothing significant

I scream at the TOP     OF MY   LUNGS!!

But the noise dies having never been noticed

 

Reviews

[AmjadPenboyoflight]

this is good poem
there is much of emotion

always strive be who you are
you are important

[child of God]

Thank you....

[wordman]

loved the write,we all feel trapped and alone at times awkward I guess
we are in a script of sorts it gets better

[SmittyJas]

It's a wonder we can get past all our problems in life. We have wants and needs and see we sacrifice ever ounce in life to obtain this balance and keep on the road to prosperity. Yes you called us self-centered and selfish but that is a human trait that goes back millions of years we were taught survival skills win at any cost. But as the civilization got more civil Man thought peace was possible but not. Fighting for power and greed envy the seven deadly sins kicked in. And Man's search for meaning that what your poem is all about a search seriously for meaning to life it is a very good write. May God Blessing find you.

[child of God]

Thank you Sr

[Andy Lewis]

This astounds the aspects of self dissasociation to the fullest in my opinion the very roots of what makes us feel and not feel...to like ones self or to find flaw in the taste of ones own mind so often we overlook the glow behind the shutters of the eyes but here it is brought to center stage ...very nice very nice indeed great piece of work...

[child of God]

Thank you. For reading

[Bear]

Oh to stand in my shoes and see what I see, feel what I feel and know what I know, but then who could do it justice and not judge by their own sin of social writers block? I really liked this, it is witty and insightful as well as a little frightful because of its verity. Thank you for sharing.

[Justin Xavier Smith]

Very depressing. Very honest. I know I used to feel this way as well. Luckily, if you can change your thinking you can change your outlook. It's a lot easier said than done, but it's little steps.

That said, I think the poem is pretty good. Some of the phrases you use feel unnatural, as though you can tell the writer hasn't actually had the experience. Mainly just the part where you start talking about "the road." I don't know, it didn't ring true. But otherwise this is a very powerful piece of work.

[Daniel Whitaker]

These questions are explains how most people feel today. Our world has been shattered. This is a really deep and powerful piece.

[Wolfwind Words]

This piece if powerful. It is an echo of many voices within our society. While highly relatable by some, it's an enigma to others. It brings the question into my thoughts.... Who needs to hear that scream... The self, or everyone else? What is the most important? The I... or the others? Just thoughts.... Thanks for sharing yours.

Wolfwind

[child of God]

hank you ....

[Saddam]

This is one of favorable write dear.
very well crafted and its way is excellent.
Great read dear.

[child of God]

thank you...