there's not a day

There's not a day that I don't think about her,
about what she did, why she doesn't call,
what is more important then calling your
own daughter just to say hello...

There's not a day that I'm not thinking
about those cold dirty hands on me
and those seven terrifying words,
"You shall never speak a word about this."

There's not a day I'm not scared to
get close to someone, out of fear
of them leaving a new hole in my heart.

So now there's not a day that I'm
not giving my family and friend
a hug because I'm afraid that
it would be the last hug from
them I'll get, because you
never know if they are going
to stab you in the back.

There's not a day that I'm not thinking of it all.

Reviews

[Daniel Sala]

After the pretty grim second verse, and the honestly heart-breaking third verse, it seems to become positive and tender with the thought of how important it is to remember what you say, sort of, good to love healthily as there may not be the opportunity tomorrow.
Your poetry is getting better with each posting, great work Stephanie.

[child of God]

Thank for your time I'm glad you like my poetry some people that go to my school doesn't like it cuz its to negative well I have a reson plus my poems are my way out of the pain

[Daniel Sala]

Thank you... Nice poetry, always a pleasure to read your work. That's healthy, catharsis is good for the soul and dealing with bad experiences, my friend; ...and each to their own, eh, we all like different things, you clearly like writing and are good at it, keep up the great work, Stephanie.

[Coyote Poetry]

I like the poem. I wanted to know more. You open doors to questions. I do understand loss. I learn the hard ways to stay positive and never leave someone you care for with negative words. To lose someone forever. It leave us with a open wound needed healing. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry. You made me think this evening.
Coyote

[Solitary Traveler]

Poetry is what we feel, and if we feel broken, then by all means, WRITE! This poem stabbed at me. I know what I felt. I am protective, and sometimes, overprotective. I have never endured this betrayal, so I do not know how you feel, but your poetry stirred anger in me. Anger over what happened, what was portrayed in the words, and you endured. Not directed at you, but the perpetrator of the crime. And that was poetry. You got a reaction, and a strong one. Well written.

[Laura Harrison]

I can feel your pain in this one... You have had a very traumatizing life for a 16 year old, I'm really sorry for everything that you have been through.

[Vidya Bacchus]

well friend ,we find it most hard to trust people when we get hurt but we have to be brave sometimes and let someone in or we will lose out on some good experiences.You are doing good keep at it:)

[Costa Siwale]

This poem has a lot of emotion in it, which you expressed well, a well written piece Broken

[child of God]

Thank you.