To BelongA Poem by Litheos Ennius TarucSometimes, I see myself apart from the world, wandering in an endless sea of people. This poem shares such perspective.I have always thought that I was different. That my ways are different compared to other people, That I think differently from them, And that I learn to see not just with my eyes or listen with my ears, But I feel with my heart as well. For as long as I can remember, I have always been treated differently. To be feared upon, To be looked down upon, To be an outcast, Simply because I refuse to be like everybody else. It has not been my choice to be Different, Because I have been blessed, or cursed, with a Gift That only a few people would understand: A Gift that can see through the masks of other people And effortlessly see their True Selves. I do not want to overwhelm people, And so, I resort to seclusion. Not because I chose to, But because, sometimes, I sense things that I am not supposed to sense. Whenever I am with people, Regardless of what I see in them, I sometimes feel strong emotions that I know I am not supposed to feel. I see joy in their faces, But I feel the cloudiness of sadness in their hearts. I see anger and vigor, But I feel loneliness and depression. I see good company and warmth, But coldness and indifference is all I feel. And so, it saddens me a lot to accept these things at once, And not be able to tell them to the people I care about. I do not want them to be confused, And in worst cases, leave me altogether, With fear that I am trespassing their most deepest, darkest thoughts. So I keep these with me, my lips pressed together. Never speaking. Never talking. But the greatest fear that I have always faced, Is not an encounter with an extremely evil force, But with the fear of having to trod this path... Alone. I have always yearned to be with my own kind. To be understood and not misjudged, To be accepted as I am. To be treated with love not because I have a Unique Gift, But because they have seen me as a part of their own. I see the evils in this world not as an end, But an invitation to question its existence: "Why do people behave so badly to other people?" "Why do people always see fear when they see something different?" "Why can't people be in a crowd and at the same time, stand up for their differences?" Are just some of the questions that haunts me before I sleep at night. They can treat me with indifference, But I will never be a victim. Because I believe that I am strong enough to be a victor, Even when there is no war to begin with. And I do not seek my revenge to them, Because, like them, I too have been in their shoes: To misunderstand the confused, To betray the trusted, To ignore the unloved. And, it is in these moments do I learn to widen my understanding. To understand them instead of sentencing them, To put myself in their shoes before I treat them with or without care.
© 2016 Litheos Ennius TarucAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on June 28, 2016 Last Updated on June 28, 2016 AuthorLitheos Ennius TarucQuezon City, NCR, PhilippinesAboutI'm just another curly kid with glasses. I have a multipotentialite mentality where multiple things as diverse as the arts and sciences gain my interest. Nonetheless, I love to write down poetry, and .. more..Writing
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