reality

my hearts been battered 
and suffocated deprived of 
its natural function 

i've cried for nights 
beyond what i should have
i agree

you were never good for me 
i was never good for you

i used your abuse as a crutch
for my own insecurities
i'll admit 

i held on so close to you

i thought i was losing a piece of me

you have no part of me, why was i so foolish?

i gave you every piece of me!

i swore for our love, i cursed life 
i shunned myself from the world 

until reality kicked in like an 8 month old baby 

it hurt, it knocked the wind out of me

i tried time after time to make it work 

time after time 
after time after time
over and over 
and over again 

borderline insanity 
doing the same thing expecting different results

all it did was drown me
i can't swim 

i was far from shore
i busted my inner tube with my harsh piercing words

you stood there on the sand laughing at me
humiliated me 

disowned me 
mocked me
as i cried as i pleaded and asked for help 

its my fault 
its mine