Unknown sickness

Am I dammed?
I’ve craved to move beyond.
Instead I have mystery’s,
My body no longer strong.

Sometimes,
I wish this Illness would take me.
So I could be whole,
So I could be free.

Instead it’s needle here,
Blood test there.
New prescriptions,
But not a single care.

I wish I knew it’s name,
This strong old foe.
The one who prevents living life,
Only letting problems grow.

I think it’s my punishment,
I must’ve offended God.
That’s got to be it,
My own dancing macabre.

I have a way out,
Though it’s looked down on.
I just want this to be over,
Stop the repeat; shuffle the song.

One too many pills?
Or please take me in my sleep.
This pain is unimaginable,
I’m not strong, I’m weak.

To this unknown sickness you’ve won,
You can say check mate.
Now either leave me entirely,
Or shine that light; it’s my fate.

Reviews

[Paul Bell]

The title says it all, explaining it probably more difficult.
Always think the pain that never leaves you must be totally debilitating.
The working body is great, not so great when something goes wrong that someone can't pinpoint though.
Hopefully that will change and soon.

[Courtney Hough]

Thanks so much! Hopefully so. It’s been about 12 years. So what’s a few more!

[Paul Bell]

That sure is a long time.

[Jenny Fikke]

Wow, strong words.
Not knowing what's wrong is hell.
Beautiful peom, thank you for sharing.
Much love, stay stong.

[Kay/Hayden]

As someone who has COPD, sickness can take over one's body. It can be so lonely and so controlling. I hope they find a cure someday for all these controlling diseases in our world. -Kay