For you

I feel like I'm holding on,
to a broken memory.
Should I start letting go?
Of all the promise made to me?

My life went on,
but yours is frozen.
Why'd you do it?
So many paths to be chosen.

It's almost like we were alone,
in a room surrounded by mirrors.
Showing both of us everything,
memories, past, haunting fears.

You yelled at me,
"It all ends tonight!"
And I ran towards you screaming,
"Matt don't give up this fight!"

Our minds and hearts so close,
but bodies were to far.
I was ready to fly to you,
catch the next shooting star.

It's almost been two months,
still flood gates unlock,
out come bursting tears,
like that morning at 9 o'clock.

Sometimes I wonder
were you there?
Watching me fall to my knees?
Gasping for air? Crying?

Do you watch me?
See these words I write?
There my prescription, drug me.
So I'll forget that horrific night.

I'm holding on,
but letting go.
I miss the life I had,
time to take control.

I know you're there Matt,
feel the warmth wiping my tears.
When I wake up screaming, crying,
I know you chase away the nightmares.

Now I feel safe,
when I'm walking all alone.
Guardian angel by my side,
leading me safely home.

I want you to be happy Matt,
spread your wings and fly.
I promised you I'd make you proud,
I'll fulfill that beyond the day I die.

Reviews

[Pushya Mithra]

As sad as they are, heartbreaks, they do bring the best out of you!
I am having trouble interpreting a few lines. If you don't mind helping me thru them,
"It's almost like we were alone, in a room surrounded by mirrors" is there any specific reason why you thought its a room of mirror? The only way I can interpret that line is, not only you showed your memories, past and fears, but while showing him, you discovered a lot of you "looking in the mirrors in the room filled with mirror". Do correct me if I am way away from your thoughts.
Why are you feeling safe when you are walking alone? and who is the guardian angel? Is it the depression you considered your guardian angel? The thoughts you go thru while you are alone are the ones keeping you safe?
Truly painful feeling to put myself in the girl's(i am assuming you) shoes while I read this heartbreak which is put in a wonderful way.

[Courtney Hough]

so the line
"we are alone in a room full of mirrors." In a mirror you always see the worst part of yourself. We both had the same struggles so it showed us as the same person.

The guardian angel is Matt the man who took his life in the poem. He's now watching over me

[Pushya Mithra]

WOW! Love the mirror reference! :)

[Wendy Grace]

this is heartbreakingly beautiful )': great work!