to be enough, to want, to strive

not pretty enough
not smart enough
not good enough to be yours

But what does it mean to be enough
living to your standards
comparing myself to your past

i want to be yours
i want to be in your arms
i want to be perfect for you

but what does it mean to want
to be so caught up in perfection
to go crazy with the feeling of need

I strive to be good
I strive to be bad

I cant make ends meet
I cant find myself

please someone save me from myself and from what he's doing to me