to kill myself

*not suicidal*

kill myself to see your reaction
...wanting to to be your distraction
kill myself to see if you care
...maybe just to know if your there
kill myself to be with you to
... showing how i love you

i wont kill myself tho wishing i could
...knowing that maybe i should
i wont kill myself just to see that you dont
...already knowing that you wont
I wont kill myself because its not who i am
...i know that u dont understand

to kill myself in order to be free
...just a little relief of me
to kill myself to never do it again
...and know exactly when
to kill myself a relief of my pain
...only with a slit of the vein


cut me
want me
hate me
love me
stay with me
murder me

just....kill me