This girl...so sensitive to world that she'll do anything to block it from seeing her tears she sheds daily. Forced to be something she's not to befriend the very world she fronts for. And she is my best friend. Now I'm real enough to realize real lies and know that she's not who everyone thinks she is.
"But how can you lie to ME?!"
She's willing to throw away herself for the superficial labels of high school and I should have seen this coming. The only glimpse of her true self shows through acts of arrogance confused with lady-like confidence and obvious ignorance that young intelligence hides behind. Naive to the fact she can bare the weight of the world with my shoulder to cry on but she rather build a 10 foot wall between our friendship and
preoccupy herself with the greener grass on the other side til Winter comes. Then when this girl, so sensitive to the world realizes that the grass is not always green, she'll need me. Need me to forgive her, need me to tell her I understand and that we'll always be friends despite how many times Spring comes around.
Aghh..Its this habit I've tried to kick over and over again but keep relapsing.
Every time I come back its stronger, more raw and I'm hooked.
I can't sniff, roll or inhale hard enough until.. more..