Sorry

First poem in weeks that actually meant something too me, so PLEASE! I want feedback.

It seems that Recently people can't stomach the truth
so they've been throwing up lame a*s excuses
for why things are the way they are.
And I swear I've tried to pray but no one here listens to me,
so whats to make me think HES hearing me anyway.!
It's kinda hard to keep faith in one man
when you lose all hope for all humanity, but how can you blame me.?
Now I'm not claiming atheism,
Ive just been vomiting my life's sorrows lately
and the insecurity in the air has me struggling 
to swallow and keep down my pride and I'm sorry.!
I'm so sorry!! For being too proud and too stubborn
to even be honest with myself!
Making a deal with the devil to find God
and now I'm here on his crowded doorstep, like an abandoned child.
On the outside looking in but that's all my excuses can offer.
Just a preview.
Forcing me to deal with this reflex of giving reasons why I give up.
But I'm tired of being sorry! I'm tired of the excuses!
I'm tired of sleeping and wishing my life away knowing not a damn thing is going to change.
So instead of praying, I'll scream, hoping someone up there will hear me and
Be proud enough to swallow my pride despite my lingering insecurities.