Erich - Twenty OneA Chapter by emilyErich
That was first time I lost a fight with Gabe. It didn’t
occur to me until years later. But it was true. That morning on the stairs was
the first time I ever admitted defeat in front of him. I rarely admitted I was
wrong. Being wrong was almost as bad as losing a real fight. But that day I
realized I had spent my entire life being horribly wrong. I always think that I maybe could have gotten away from
him if he hadn’t let me leave. If he had kept blocking my way I would have
eventually gotten angry enough to knock him down. But Gabe told me to go. I
know he only stood aside because he was really admitting defeat. He didn’t know
that I would never be able to walk away from him. I didn’t even know I
would never be able to walk away from him. But I just couldn’t do it. All the conflict in my head crashed around until I
couldn’t even move. I had one more chance to make the right choice. All I could
do was say his name over and over. I think the sound of his name was what made
me choose what I chose. I just thought about everything that name meant to me.
“Gabe.” The one who knew everything about me. “Gabe.” The best friend I had
ever had. “Gabe.” The only person in the world who had ever risked his life for
mine. “Gabriel.” The boy who I never wanted to leave. I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I looked up at Gabe with a
tear slipping down his cheek. A look of defeated disappointment in his big
green eyes. I lost control. For the first time in my life I let go of every
voice in my head except my own. All I wanted in the world was to be with Gabe. I was too jumbled to say any of that. As usual my body
took over before my brain could. Honestly I don’t think my brain was working at
all when I kissed him. There was such a rush running through me I only actually
remember bits of that kiss on the steps. I remember Gabe kept pulling away and
looking at me. Like he expected me to come to my senses. I remember that he
just kept crying and I kept trying to wipe the tears off his face with my
thumb. I remember how it felt to press Gabe’s wet body against mine. I don’t
remember when the rain started though. I just know that suddenly we were
soaking wet and Gabe was asking me to go with him to Heathshire. I know I meant
it when I told him yes. He kissed me again when I told him to ask Hersch and Jim
to come too. That was when I realized he was shivering. He hadn’t changed out
of his clothes from the night before. The rain had soaked him through. I
grabbed his hand and pulled him down the stairs and back inside. I couldn’t keep my hands off him once we were on the
other side of the door. I felt like I was making up for a whole semester of
temptation I had repressed. Gabe smiling. Gabe holding my hand. Gabe with his
undershirt clinging to his chest. I pulled him back over to me. Ran my fingers
through his wet hair. I wanted to bruise his lips again. Gabe kissed just my
bottom lip and pressed his forehead to mine. Laughing. We were being too reckless. I know that now. We could
have been arrested if anyone saw us. I’m not sure what Jim said that made me
realize he was there. I was just suddenly aware that we were being watched. I
sprang away from Gabe. My survival instinct kicked in and I prepared to knock
out anyone who had seen us. Hersch and Jim and Rebecca were all watching us from down
the hall. Obviously I couldn’t fight them. But I didn’t know what else to do. I
looked to Gabe for some sign of what to do. He would be better at this. But he
looked just as shocked as I was. He just stood there in a puddle. Looking up at
the ceiling and covering his swollen mouth. I stared at my shoes and scratched
nervously at the back of my neck. Too much time had passed. I had to say
something. “We were, um... Gabe and I, just - you know - we were...”
I knew there wasn’t a lie in the world to get me out of this one. “I want you to come to Yorkshire!” Gabe blurted. All four
of us gaped at him. I couldn’t believe he had managed to come up with anything
to say. The idea clearly hadn’t occurred to any of them either. I noticed Jim
and Rebecca were holding hands. They must have told Hersch. The fact that Jim
was still alive told me that Hersch was probably all right with it. Gabe must
have realized the same thing. “You three, you're the closest thing to family I
have left," Gabe added sadly. "Please, there’s plenty of room at
Heathshire for all of us. I mean, no one wants to go home, right?” Jim’s eyes were on the ceiling. I finally got that he was
trying to to look at us. He wasn’t comfortable with seeing Gabe and me together
at all. “Are you two....” he pointed two fingers in our direction. Not one of
us was willing to finish that sentence. Jim tried again. “Are you two...” Rebecca fixed him before I had to punch him. “James!” she
smacked him on the chest. Jim shut up. She looked anxiously at Hersch. “What do
you think, Herschel?” We all knew this was really Hersch’s decision. Whether I
liked it or not he was the real center of the group. Rebecca and Jim would do
whatever he said. Hersch looked at the floor and shook his head for a second.
Not a promising sign. But then he lifted his head and smiled. “You’re right,” he nodded. “No one wants to go home.” Rebecca let out an excited squeal. She was obviously
feeling a little emotional today. She squeezed Jim’s hand and hugged Hersch
around the neck. Then she dashed forward to throw her arms around Gabe. Those
two really were good friends. I was the one she had trouble with. When she let
go of Gabe she extended a brave hand to me. “Don’t ever hurt him again,” she purred threateningly. I
nodded immediately. I couldn't imagine hurting Gabe again. And I really
believed that she would come after me if I did. Hell, did Jim ever have his
hands full. I didn’t get a chance to answer because Hersch and Jim had reached
us by then. They slapped me on the back and gave Gabe encouraging nudges in the
ribs. We wouldn’t talk about what they clearly knew had happened between Gabe
and me. But if they had agreed to come with they must have been all right with
it. The door behind us swung open again. Jim laughed out
loud. I didn’t understand why until I realized it was the very same prefect who
had showed us to our rooms on that first day. He looked as uptight as ever. “Oi, you’re soaking wet!” “Are they?” Jim asked sarcastically. Hersch smacked him
on the back of the head. “Don’t get smart with me, Banhart. Get in your uniforms,
you two! You’re late for your dorm photo.” “Dorm photo?” The prefect nodded. “On the lawn in two minutes. It is
just the four of you, isn’t it, your dorm?” “That’s us all right,” Jim still sounded sarcastic. The
prefect gave us a disapproving look and went back out the door. “All right, you heard the man. Gabe and Erich, go find
your uniforms,” Hersch ordered. I groaned. I had happily taken off my uniform
off. I thought it would be the last time I would have to wear the goddamn
thing. I did want to get out of my wet clothes though. Jim and Hersch were
already dressed. Though they looked a little shabby. Why was Jim only wearing
one shoe? Gabe rolled his eyes and we made our way back to the dorm. I dried off with a towel and got dressed in my usual
corner behind the bunk. “I can’t find my other pants.” When I looked over I saw
Gabe halfway inside his trunk. He was stripped down to his underwear. “These
ones are stained.” The overwhelming urge to make up for lost time took over me
again. I kept myself rooted on the spot only out of fear that Hersch or Jim
would come in. Gabe found the pants and pulled them on. When he looked
up he noticed how I was looking at him. He bit his lip to hold back a smile.
That only made him look better. The fear of being seen wasn’t enough to keep me
away from him anymore. I pulled Gabe over to me and kissed him hard. I could
feel him smiling under my lips. When he pushed me away he was beaming. I
pressed my lips to his forehead. “I’m going to miss this
place,” he said quietly. I nodded into his hair. “I know.” This would always be
the place where it all started. The place I had first seen his face. Where we
had drank and smoked into friendship. When we had slept together. A part of me
wanted to back to the first day and do it again. By now I could barely remember
a time when I actually managed to fight the way I felt about Gabe. “Come on,”
he picked up his shirt and vest off the bed, “we don’t want them to wonder what
we’re doing in here.” Gabe finished getting dressed. He considered bringing his
trunk up but decided to come back for it. He did grab his violin though. On the
way out I grabbed my stupid newsboy hat off the table and dropped it on his
head. It looked better on him. Hersch and Jim were waiting for us on the lawn. Outside
the rain had stopped as quickly as it had started. I dragged my trunk behind
me. I had left it on the top stair. “Where’s Rebecca?” Gabe asked. “She went up to get her things.” The West Block dorm was
just dispersing from their photo. All four of us exchanged smug looks with the
Wankers. There was no question of who had come out on top of that rivalry. The professor with the camera looked up from his
clipboard. “All right, can I have the Main Hall dorm?” I didn’t realize we had
a real name. The four of us stepped up. “Is this it?” he asked disbelievingly.
“Just the four of you?” I snorted. “‘Is this it?’” The four of us felt bigger than
any dorm in the world. “We’re not just a dorm!” Hersch objected. Gabe smirked. “We’re the bloody Sons of Thunder!” I squeezed his shoulder. Jim and Hersch broke out
laughing. The professor was not amused. He rolled his eyes. “Well, set up here
then. Here, just sit on the trunk.” I went to the base of the oak tree and
dropped my trunk. Gabe and Jim sat on it and Hersch and I stood behind them.
The professor set up his camera. He didn’t seem too interested in us. “Ready?
Three, two, one...” On ‘one,’ a few things happened at the same time. I
wrapped my arm around Gabe’s neck and put my head on his shoulder. To anyone
else I figured we would look like close friends. No one was watching anyway.
Gabe turned to look at me with happiness and awe in his eyes. I snapped my head
towards the camera with a very real smile on my face. At the same time, Rebecca
came out the door with a suitcase in her hand. Jim’s face lit up and he stood
up and waved to signal her. Hersch looked at Gabe and I and shook his head but
at the same time reached out to smack Jim for ruining the picture. Then the
flash went off and captured that one second when we all lost focus. That was the first picture of the four of us. In five
minutes, we would all believe it was the only picture that would ever be taken
of the four of us. For years I wanted nothing more than to see that picture.
When I finally did I was struck by how badly it represented our time at
Wellington’s. For most of the term we had been angry and sad and scared. Even though
we had each other. But that picture held onto the one moment when we were all
impossibly happy. It was also the last moment before the world shattered
again. The professor sighed and walked away from us as soon as
the flash died. Jim bounded towards Rebecca. Hersch sat down on the trunk and
sighed. Gabe got up. “I have to go back for my trunk,” he said to me. “Come back quick. We’ll have to take the bus out of
here,” Hersch commented. I nodded and Gabe turned away. Now, I don’t want to say
that I somehow knew what was going to happen right then. Because I didn’t. But
for whatever reason, I wanted to see Gabe one more time before he went back
into the building. I caught his hand. I didn’t care that Hersch was watching.
Gabe turned back to me. I realized I didn’t even have anything to say. “Gabe.”
It was all I could have said. Gabe smiled back at me and squeezed my hand. Then
he let go and turned back towards the school. I wouldn’t see his face or touch him again for more than
two years. I watched Gabe walk away until he was all the way inside
the building. I picked up his violin case with a smile. That was when I
realized Hersch was watching me. He looked a little sad. He had his elbows on
his thighs with his head resting on his fist. This must have been tougher for
him than for any of us. He was the only one who was alone now. He looked up at
me. “You two?” was all he said. I couldn’t lie to Hersch. “Yeah.” He nodded. I didn’t know what to expect him to say. “Good
for you.” I don’t know what I would have said if I had the chance.
But I never got to respond. That was when the sirens began to scream. Hersch looked panicked. He shot to his feet and ran over
to me. Jim and Rebecca were nowhere in sight. “It must be a drill?” he yelled
with his hands over his ears. It’s midday!” I didn’t know why. But I knew this wasn't just a drill. I
could feel it. I knew it was the Germans. They had never attacked in daylight
before. But whatever they did, they had done it right. The sirens were too
late. The planes were in the sky just seconds after the screaming started. The
whole place descended into chaos. The whole lawn was just a sea of panic. Boys
all over the campus shoved towards the dorms. I couldn’t move. I was shaking
and frozen. The screaming. Oh God, the screaming. It was never going to stop. I
knew I was going to die. I couldn’t handle this without Gabe. Oh God. Gabe. “Gabe!” I screamed. I was unfrozen. I flew towards the
school. I had to find Gabe. “Gabe!” “Rebecca!” I could hear Hersch yelling behind me.
"Jim!" I didn’t dare turn around. I shoved through the crowd of
terrified boys. I had to keep moving. We would never make it out of this.
Everyone was going to die. Gabe. Find Gabe. I had to be with him. Even if we
didn't make it out of this alive I had to be with him. People were screaming
and guns were firing and the planes were flying so so low and all I wanted was
to hold Gabe one more time before we all got blown off the earth. And something was falling from the plane. There was just a flash of light and incredible heat. I
didn’t even hear it fall. I was thrown backwards away from the school in a
burst of flame and debris. Wellington's was torn to nothing. And Gabe’s violin was
wrenched out of my hand. The rain had started again when I came to. The icy sharp
drops stung as they hit my scorched, torn skin. I couldn’t breathe. I wondered
if I was drowning. I was delirious. All I could think was that I had somehow
gone back in time. Back to the night Gabe first kissed me. I thought I was back
to the moment when I practically drowned myself trying to wash him off me. I
thought I was getting a second chance. What I was supposed to do with it I
didn’t know. Then I heard a foggy and faraway voice. “You lot, keep
looking!” It only took one try at sitting up to tell me I had broken more than
my arm this time. But I could still see. I was lying next to what was left of
the destroyed oak tree. Someone was shoving the weight of wood and broken
bricks off my chest. I still couldn’t breathe. I made a noise like a wounded
animal so they would know something was wrong. An unfamiliar face appeared above me. My vision was
blurred around the edges. “He’s got some lung damage, but this one has a shot.
Get him on the truck!” No one came. “Oi! There’s a survivor over here!” A survivor. I was a survivor. But I didn’t care about
that. I didn’t want to be a survivor. Not if I was the only one. Not it I had
to do it alone. Not without Jim or Hersch. Not without Gabe. Someone was loading me onto a stretcher. I had to know. I
had to know if he made it out alive. I gurgled. When I tried to breathe it felt
like nothing happened. Gasping and gurgling, I managed three impossible words.
“Basement… anyone… alive?” “Everyone in the basement’s alive, mate,” said a voice
close to my head. “Safest place on campus. Like a bomb shelter down there, it
was.” But it didn’t matter. Whatever happened to me didn’t
matter anymore. He was alive. Gabe was alive. I was lifted into an ambulance. My head tilted back
towards the school. I expected to see the familiar constant sight of
Wellington’s. But it was gone. There was nothing there. Nothing but a pile of
rubble and groups of survivors huddled in the grass. I wasn’t sure. But I
thought maybe I could see the back of a head of black curls sitting in one of
the groups of boys. The doors closed behind me and I didn’t see him again for
more than two years. This was it. Germany had
taken everything from me. My lungs gave out after that. I gasped and gasped but I
couldn’t do anything but breathe in. My world started going black around the
edges. People around me were yelling. But I couldn’t make out what they were
saying. All I knew was that Wellington’s was gone. Gabe was gone. Everything that mattered was gone. And if I was lucky soon I would be gone too. © 2012 emilyAuthor's Note
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