After Math

Letting go

Where are you now

On this dark December night?

Probably tucked away in your bed

But my mind can’t help but wonder

Do I ever creep back into your thoughts?

Did the words I left for you that night,

Linger in the cool crisp air

And does the memory of me harden that cold heart of yours dear?

And are you full with regret?

Oh where are you now?

As I drag on my last cigarette

I am forced again with the constant thought; that is you.

Even on the lonelinest of nights

Your manifestation troubles me

Warm feelings surge through my body

Endlessly lingering upon my skin,

just like a trifling plant buried beneath winter snow

We can never be too sure

Of this life’s outcome

But just know I gave you my all.

Oh where are you now?

Time to time I shed a few tears

Tears of sorrow and remorse

For who couldn’t

With such delicate memories

Like these

But I don’t want to forget

I want to heal

Repair

And love again

But I need to know

Do you wake up in the morning,

With a smile across that face of yours

Like the times we spent never affected you

As if my disappearance had no impact

Or do your nights and mornings string together like

 A never ending shadow

With the hope of my return?

Oh where are you now?

Through the heartache and the laughter

I thank you

Because darling you have showed me the meaning to friendship

The love we shared was beautiful

Simple and pure

The best kind out there

It’s not everyday someone comes into our lives and imprints themselves

As much as you did to me

Leaving you was a struggle like no other

But it had to done

For I was breaking

Tearing at the seams.

I watched us go our separate ways

And it nearly killed me

But as time goes on

The pain I once felt so close to me

Began to grow numb

And I started to feel okay

But I am no fool

 For the love I had for you will not part

I’ll push it down into the emptiest crooks of my subconscious 

But it shall never vanish.

Because the heart does not forget its’ first love

Oh darling,

on nights like tonight

With the rain pouring down my back door

I hope I come to mind.

And you’re filled with sweet thoughts

Of the rainy nights we lay awake keeping each other company

Oh where are you now?

For you see I am off

Deep in the world,

Facing all the wonders and delights

 Released of your burden

I am whole

I am me

I am Megan

Maybe I wasn’t enough for you

But that doesn’t worry me anymore

I am enough just for me.

So darling

Don’t tell me where you are

I don’t need to know.

 

(kb)

Reviews

[Fabian G. Franklin]

"And does the memory of me harden that cold heart of yours dear?" I'd like to see... Does the memory harden more than your frozen heart?" You are allowed a bit of wickedness in poetry.
"Even on the loneliness of nights
Your manifestation revenues against me"
Okay...THIS makes zero sense! try.."loneliest" and "Troubles me" or something else there...revenue is NOT a verb. "And just like a trifling plant buried beneath the winter snow" Drop the "and" at the first...drop the "the" before "winter snow" They are not needed. "Through the heart ache and the laughter" Heartache is one word. "And you’re filled with sweet thoughts
Of the rainy nights we lay awake keeping each other company " GREAT STUFF!
I will say you should broaden you topics...you have obvious talent.

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Whoa! Megan, I really did love this poem of yours. I can see your talent shining through this as you expressed every emotion possible. In the beginning, the reader can sense your aches for the guy back and where he might be. Even if you cross his mind in the morning or at night. Then as the poem starts to dwindle, it turns into an emotion that suprised most of your readers, including me. Most of the time when wanting and pleading for someone back, they never end it saying that they are now whole and don't need to know where they are. You added a marvelous twist to the usual heartaching love poetry! You have so much potential as a writer. Splendid job:)

"For you see I am off
Deep in the world,
Facing all the wonders and delights
Released of your burden
I am whole
I am me
I am Megan
Maybe I wasn't enough for you
But that doesn't worry me anymore
I am anough just for me.
So darling
Don't tell me where you are
I don't need to know. " --The BEST part of the entire poem, I must say. It takes a lot of strength and effort to pull away and walk into the world without the person you once loved and gave your all to. I do also love to add that at the end of every stanza the repitition of "Where are you now?" Then how you ended the whole poem with :

"Don't tell me where you are
I don't need to knw."-Quite clever and nice.

I did notice only one small mistake:

In the fourth stanza, last line- *its shouldn't have an apostrophe.


Ashley Rivers--Dream BIG and you'll win BIG ;)

[Akira]

I love this! Beautiul :)

[Molly Garnet]

This is beautiful holy s**t

[Megan]

omg thank you so much! :')

[Molly Garnet]

No thank you. It's amazing how you created a character arc in such a short poem, I absolutely love it.