Monster of the Night

When the only thing you love destroys you.

I cling so close to you.

You are like nothing I have ever experienced.

A dark and twisted creature.

Simply perfect.

But I hold onto nothing

A spark of hope, but my fire is slowly dying out.

And as is reaches its final spark, I am left alone in the dark.

Your shadow reflects against my bedroom wall.

You hover there so beautifully.

But something is different this time.

Your dark eyes glare into my soul.

You inch closer to my fragile body.

Your breath, slow and steady lingers along the nape of my neck.

The air becomes dense, as you choke the air right out of my lungs.

For I realize my beautiful creature is a monster.

Cold and malicious.

You take ahold of my gentle heart.

Rip it out right from my chest; tear it apart, piece by piece.

Only to leave it there.

All the bones in my body go numb; I yearn for your embrace.

To be held in your arms and coerced into you.

I should scream out, yell for help. 

Do something.

But instead I let you destroy me.

Strip me down,

As you take and take

But never give.

You drag me down further and further into your black pit.

I’m bleeding out, my pure love spills everywhere.

But this doesn’t matter, for you are here.

As I watch you move in for your last kill,

I lay here helpless.

You suck the last living thing right out of me.

My blood drips from your hands.

It covers up your body,

Your stance remains over my abandoned form.

I beg for you stay.

I need you.

There is no pain, when you are around.

But you are not really here.

For this is not the boy I have grown to love.

He is gone, nowhere to be found.

Why do I still hang on then?

For the memories of the once was?

To feel the feelings I once felt so long ago?

Please don’t go love.

Don’t transform into everything you once said you wouldn’t.

Is it too late?

Is there still a fragment of hope?

And as the morning sunlight shines in,

You have disappeared.

I am alone.

Forgotten.

My shriveled frame lies on the cold ground.

Left here to diminish into the dirt.

The colors fade out from my once stable world.

My cherished life has turned empty.

I’ll never be the same.

I begin to feel pain.

The throbbing starts up

It awakens my lifeless body

It is too much for me to bare.

Streams of tears drop from my face.

I am left here with the reality.

Despair washes upon me,

And with a final breath

I let it all out

I scream with agony,

Torture

Suffering

You have killed me darling.

Like I was nothing to you

When all I ever did was love you

Adore you

Oh sweetheart 

I have loved you

Every bit of your cruel being.

But it does not matter now

And like the wind you have drifted away from me

Never to come back.

I shut my eyes

The darkness consumes me

I am swept away into the night

Never to be heard from again.

Oh beautiful monster

Why did I allow you to take ahold of me so tightly?

Oh beautiful monster

Are you finally satisfied?

Did you get everything you ever wanted?

Oh beautiful monster

Let me die peacefully.

 

 

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Reviews

[Ban Heo]

whew, this thing long. I found myself really wanting for some stanza breaks but it was a good read. There are some lines i would like to see written differently like "All my bones in my body go numb; I yearn for your embrace." I would prefer all THE bones in MY body. Things like that, but they're all little things. Good work.

[Megan]

thanks so much!