My Nation

I'm f*****g crazy. I've tried denying it and hiding it for so long
F**k it. I don't care anymore. I'm not normal. I'm not average
I'm not laid-back, easy-going, fun-loving, care-free, or pleasant to be around
I'm not level-headed. I don't think things through. I don't follow my own advice
I'm not warm, friendly, inviting, walking around with a s**t-eating grin because I don't know or care what the f**k is going on outside of my own little white suburban upper-middle class corner of existence

I'm angry. I'm mean. I'm poor. I'm pissed off.
I hate. I swear. I cry. I yell. I tell people off. I have a problem with authority.
I won't take s**t from anyone no matter how handsome they are or how much money they offer me

The world isn't for me. I'm dissatisfied with every minute of every day and rather than giggle, shrug, and say "What can ya do? Lol." I argue and fight and piss off everyone around me
I've been abused and hated and rejected and shamed
Shoved, punched, bitten (it was weird) slapped in the face, stabbed in the back, deceived, hurt, tortured, punished, all for what?

Because you don't like my face, the cut of my jib, my clothes, my waistline
Whatever
I'm done trying to blend in and pretend that I'm like you
I'm fucked up, damaged, broken, abused
And I hate the people of the world so much that I won't let them win
If I have to die fighting, I will
I'll be a f*****g soldier
Not for a country, religion, idea, flag, land, or oil
I'll be a soldier for me.

I want to start a new nation
Give me the fucked up, damaged, broken, and abused of the world
Everyone else who's been shoved, punched, bitten, slapped in the face, stabbed in the back, deceived, hurt, and tortured
I'll take care of you
I used to fear you because you were what I was ashamed of in myself
But I love you
I love you and if the world doesn't want us, we'll always have each other

Reviews

[Gray]

A very moving and powerful poem. Nice style.

Gray