raging hate

this is how I feel about love as someone who has never been in love.

I hate love. 

I hate the fact that people are capable of loving something, but it has to be genuine. which means you can not rush it or fake it ensue then everyone will know you are lying. you can feel it in your soul when youre in love, everything feels lighter. that's what people say. I've never been in love. people say its the best thing every having someone think you're wonderful made. 

whatever.

I dont need love, in fact, I hate it. I hate saying I love you. I hate expressing my love. I hate hugs. I hate seeing people in love.

 I hate it I hate it I hate it. 

why can't someone look at me like that? why can't someone be so infactured with me like I have been with them? 

I hate this absence of love.

so I filled it with rage. 

 

- leo moon