It AllA Poem by lizardbrain
The things I have learned from you are endless,
And some of them are painful and many of them are sweet but all of them impart a sense of yearning, of incompleteness, of wanting more and of it never being enough, upon my heart. A big "what if?" A what if circumstances had been different, a what if I hadn't been so afraid, a what if I had realized sooner what it was we had. A what if I'm settling for all these tiny heartbreaks to avoid the one that would have wrecked me. A what if you are and will always be the closest I would ever come to being seen. What was that weekend morning sadness about? When we would take it easy but I never could figure out what it was that felt off, what was wrong. Aries season is almost here and I can feel the intensity rising from the sweet Pisces sadness to one more akin to rage. The building in my chest. The insatiable-ness of it all, IT ALL "it all." As in, I want it, as in, I need it, as in, I can't live without it but I also can't fit it into my fists, especially when they're clenched so tight, like trying to hold the entire ocean inside my hands, inside my chest, inside my veins, the salt water burning my eyes, looking for an escape. Trying to hold the impossible inside my body. It all.
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4 Reviews Added on March 11, 2019 Last Updated on March 11, 2019 AuthorlizardbrainSDAboutusually searching through poetry for something to lift the fog. exploring writing, through stream of consciousness journaling and marginally more intentional prose poetry, in an effort to better un.. more..Writing
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