I hit the bottom

I hit the bottom

every time I stand up.

I feel like I'm just droppin,

all the balls my hands touch.

Life ain't even helping

like a man's crutch.

I'm just fallin' to earth

like my chutes jammed up.

I gotta climb a mountain

no ropes and no stairs.

Every time I slip I get up

when no one else cares.

Fightin' through the dark

no lights and no flares.

Broke like the stock market

with no shares.

Dragged down like a fisherman

with his biggest catch.

Swimmin' to the surface

from the bottom no breath.

Sleepin' through this life

like my dreams are of death.

I got all the luck on

my side with no bet.

breakin' outta hell, but

it's locked with no key.

No rope around my neck,

but I'm still choking.

The flames are getting closer

and the oil's soaked me.

My death'll end up

being sleep with no dreams.

I want to rise up

to get over the doubt.

Whenever I try love,

I'm left without.

Then I try to light up,

but my light goes out.

Hate thinking life sucks,

but it does like a drought.

Author's Note

Written a few months ago.