Afraid to look

we do not always like what we see

I stand solid 
As my brain tries to comprehend 
What my eyes see 
I feel my stomach turn 
My feel the fear rise 
My hands start to sweat 
And I can feel the shakes in my legs 
I think of turning 
I think of running 
But I cannot move 
I close my eyes 
But in the darkness 
The fear grows stronger 
I open them again 
And try to avert my glaze 
I do not want to look 
I want to get away 
I wipe the sweat from my brow 
I feel the cold 
I feel the skin 
Why does it feel this way 
Why does it look so different 
Than the face I see 
In the mirror