A thoughtful rideA Story by Haim KadmanOne more glimpse at my TRCJ.Riding a bus on the way to the hotel, sitting next to the broad window;
Nick revived in his mind's eye Nicole's departure that afternoon. Was she that much attached to them? He
wondered. Or was there some strange kind of parental relationship, which she
missed badly and they provided? Well it’s too early to draw any
conclusions. But as far as I could tell she might be playing a perfect role in her
own subtle way, just as she did successfully so many times before, no
doubt. She was the type who was able “to live it and enjoy it”. That was her
style all right. He almost laughed out loud thinking of it and adoring her on the same
time. Doesn’t she play the same role with me, does she really love me?
But that menacing doubt was driven away from his thoughts, as soon as it popped
up but veered back into his conscious, like a boomerang. His eyes were glued to
the glass pane of his window absent mindedly, without paying any heed to the
city and its sights passing by. But what about my own relations with Nicole, yeah what kind of relations
do we have? She used to be quite harsh toward me down there, all along that
time… Flooded with sudden anguish, he stopped his hopeful thoughts short. Anyway,
things have changed completely from one end to another, she herself admits it!
I'll never give her up, so help me! The thought flashed through his brain, storming it in a wave of resolute
heated fury. But then for a friction of a second, he was stunned with torturing
fear. What is she really doing this afternoon? Where is she going, whom is
she meeting? Good God! I must rid myself of these haunting suspicions. I must
clear it out of my head! After all, what was she doing from the day that we
parted till these very days... And how about the life she led long before she
had known me. There must have been other
men in her life. I can't ignore it. But I was her lover and still am and above
all, she loves me! Our relations are far deeper than the polite but superficial
“Hi and bye” relations, she leads with the Gordins! They may treat her as their
only child, why should it bother me? On the contrary I can make a good use out
of it, why not? As for their blind obedience, they must be spellbound and no
wonder they are. As a Eurasian she represents to them the very symbol of human
equality, in its pure communist conception's value. Her beauty on the
other hand is well deserved to be admired, worshipped is the right term! Not by
men alone and her wealth, must be another major factor no doubt, while these
two are Jews...! Oh God, I'd better forget it, give up such thoughts! I gave
Nicole my word and who knows, they might prove otherwise, completely different. The bus slowed down and turned towards the crowded sidewalk. That's exactly the bus stop where I should get off! Nick realized
surprised and left his seat in a hurry, rushing to the open rear door. © Haim Kadman 1991 " all rights reserved. © 2012 Haim Kadman |
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Added on March 1, 2012 Last Updated on March 1, 2012 AuthorHaim KadmanPetach-Tikva, IsraelAboutProfile: A few words about myself: being a native of a small country whose waist is seventeen kilometers wide in a certain area; and in seven to eight hours drive one can cross its length, I was amaze.. more..Writing
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