The day I Realized

 As I talk to him my heat gets filled with happiness. I can't imagine what life would be life if I had never met, sean. I love him. I know I do. I love sean. i always will. i love him so so much. I can't put what i feel about him in words that well. When i talk to him it feels like someone actually cares about me. Like I'm not just another girl in little old Madison, Maine. He listens to me. When ever I need him he is there to help me. He is so amazingly sweet to me. He doesn't like me just because of my looks. I love sean. So much. I do want to be with him. No matter what, I'll always love him and care for him like we are dating. I love the way he looks at me when I'm being stupid or when I'm just being Courtney. He always knows if I'm sad or depressed or mad. He always knows how I feel. All the time. and he helps me. At the dance, when I kissed his cheek, I felt like I was flying. Like I was in another world. I know that might sound wicked cheesy but that is how i feel. Truly. When we were dating and we kissed, it was the most amazing feeling ever. I loved it. 

   We never fight, Sean and I. All we do is talk. We flirt constantly. When ever we talk he reminds me how beautiful I am. He tells me he loves me all the time. Which instantly puts a big smile on my face. I will never leave him. Even if he has the smallest doubt in his mind that I might leave him or not love him, I end up convincing him that I will never, ever stop loving him. No matter how bad it gets between us at times, we always figure it out. When I wake up in the morning, the first thing that comes to my mind is, Oh I get to see Sean today! It's the only reason I get up five mornings a week. To see him. He is truly amazing. I will always care and love him. Forever. Even on the weekend or when we don't have school. I get up early ever morning and log onto myspace and sit there. Hoping that he will log on. When he does it's always something that brightens my day, what he says. " Hey babe :) " or " Good morning hun :) " Those type of things always lightens up my eyes. 

   Sometimes, I'm not to sure why he loves me. I ask him sometimes and his answer is always so significant. It always puts a big smile on my face. He said he loves my hair and my eyes. My eyes are pretty amazing. Anyways, he is amazing. If I hadn't moved here and met him, my life would still be really dull and boring and I would have no reason to get up in the mornings. 

   I remember the very day he told em he loved me. That same night, he dedicated the song ' Fall For You' by Secondhand Serenade. I love that song. I was standing at the end of my driveway. Just pacing around in circles with butterflies fluttering all throughout my stomach. I could hear the radio in the back ground at his house. He was listening to ' Fall For You. ' I remember telling him how much I loved that song. " Courtney, when ever I listen to this song, I always think of you. Im dedicating this song to you. This is your song from me now. " He said something like that. I remember right when he told me that my heart did a flip and started to race. " I love you, Sean. " That is the first time I realized that I really did love him. I do love him, and I always will.