Chapter 9

The next day came. I woke up to silence. Well, besides my alarm. I looked out the window. It is thursday. It is a beautiful morning. The sun is shining, the snow is melting, (I hope) and my parents aren't here. Surprise surprise. The only thing is, even though the sun is shining outside, darkness is the only thing that remains in my heart. I felt like I miserable all the time. Like there was no light side to my days. Ever since he told me what he had done to his previous girl friend, I've been scared. Probably not for life, but as long as I'm still with him, my days are going to be darker then my nights.

I get ready for school. You know, the normal routine. I head out the door into the day that lies before me. I arrive at the school. The first thing that I see is him. He is standing at the entrance to the school. As I get closer to him I see him watching me. He looks up and down my body and looks at me like I'm a piece of meat. Wow. I say in my head. He has to be that pathetic. I hated the way he looked at me. Personally, I have no idea why he even looked at me. No body else does. Why should he? I get to where he is and he kisses my cold shivering lips.

“ Babe, you look freezing. Let's get inside.” He says as he acts like he actually cares if I'm cold or not.

We get inside and I look at him in a confused way.

“ What is it? What's wrong?” He asks another question that I really don't want to answer.

“ Nothing. It's just... why did you wait for me this morning? To get to school?”

“ Because you're my girl friend and I wanted to make sure yu got here safe.”

Yea right. I think to myself. I know he doesn't care. He just wants me to stay alive long enough to get some. I thank him, then make up a lame excuse to get to class early. I get to my advisory. I sit in my chair, just thinking. Thinking about tomorrow night. What could and maybe would happen. At this point I'm kind of scaring myself, so I stop thinking about it and focus on the snow falling from the sky.

Advisory is over and I'm heading to Biology now. I get about thirty feet from the doorway of the class room, going right by the janitors closet, when someone violently pulls me in. I yelp as the person outs it's hand over my mouth. As soon as I am al the way in and the door is closed all the way, it uncovers my mouth. I'm breathing heavily not knowing what is happening. The person turns me around to face it. I realize it's him. My boy friend. In a way I guess I'm sort of relieved it's not some stranger. I am also very irritated, though. He pulls me close and kisses my lips. As we kiss, he presses my body tight up against his. I get a little nervous and pull back.

I look at him, he has this confused but really gentle look in his eyes. I haven't seen this in a long time so I take advantage of it. I pull him close to me, as he did to me, and start kissing him back. I admit that I do like it when we kiss, but I'm just scared. After we pulled back, a minute later, I bite my lip and sigh. I do it in my head so he doesn't ask anymore questions. I sigh a sign of reliefe but also a sign of disappointment. In no one, but myself.

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