Pain, Hurt, and Agony

I know I didn't know her as well as I should have. I knew her enough, to feel the pain, the hurt, the agony. I think to myself. Why can't I just take her place. No one would notice. No one would care. She would be here, that would be all that would matter. For her to back and with her friends and happy once again. For me to be there, out of my guilt.

I wanted to do it, just like she had done that morning. I wanted go. To end it once and for all. I know it wouldn't make a difference if I took her place. Everyone loved her. It's different with me. I wish I could at least tell her. To just try to convince her, not to do the tragic thing she had done. I didn't, and that I regret.  I should have, I could have, but I didn't. With that, I then feel, the pain, hurt, and agony. I shouldn't blame myself for the life changing scene. But sadly, I do. Everyday I think about what it would have been life it I took her place. happier. For everyone.

I think about her and how she once was here on the earth. With all her friends and family. The ones she loved. The ones she adored in every which way. No one is perfect. That, I know the knew. I wish she could still be here, somehow, someway. I cry over and over again. For the same reason. The reason everyone cried that day of hurt, pain, and agony. 

 

Author's Note

Life changes everyday...

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