surprisingly

i laughed today, after what felt like ages

it feels strange

to be startled into a laugh 

and then realize

that you can’t remember the last time

something similar happened

when was the last time

i felt the gurgle of amusement

bubble up through my throat

like the crash of waves on the sand

like the playful dapple of sunlight through leaves

like an old friend?

when was the last time 

the all-pervasive apathy 

cracked

like lightning against the clouds

like rocks disturbing the rapid rush of a river 

like the thrilling thrum of my heart as i talked to her?

i don’t have an answer

but that laugh gave me the hope

to try and find it

Author's Note

Not really interested in reviews that are critiques. Thanks for reading.