I'm Sorry

I have felt enormous pressure to become successful, my father has always criticized me for my choices. I am finally starting to ignore his words and focus on my own journey.

Sorry

Sorry for the pain

Sorry for my choices

I’m sorry for letting you down

 

 

We had this vision

Success and power and money

That’s what matters right?
At least that’s what you told me

 

I tried so hard

I failed so many times

I tried again

I’m a failure

 

I hid in embarrassment

All I felt was shame, remorse

Disappointment

Or was it you that felt that way?

 

I had never felt so low

As that day you told me

I was a lost cause

What did I lose exactly?

 

Your interpretation of myself was cold

It was pure rage

I began to think of myself as a nobody

I wouldn’t amount to anything

 

Reflecting brought me back down to earth

Why did I feel the way you did?

I don’t know if I was sorry

I gave you all I could give

 

I wanted to make you proud

Pride meant giving you all of me

It meant giving you a piece of my heart

Something I have not recovered

 

 

 

 Why do I let you do this to me?

My mind tells me you are right

But my heart tells me you are evil

Was it really I who failed?

 

Slowly, I put aside the animosity

My thoughts were my own

Your thoughts were yours

My feelings are what matters

 

I took a step back from the madness

My purpose was not yours

It was mine

I am not sorry

Author's Note

This poem is still in progress, although I am proud of it so far :)

Reviews

[sette]

and it is one beautiful perspective in life.. the decision to run one's own life is every goal of a person and not to be dictated by others

[poetryloverr44]

Thank you sette, I totally agree.