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I fell in love once and I never thought that I would. This person was everything I wanted and many things I didn’t want, but it didn’t matter to me because of everything good that we had. 

We chose o have a child together after only knowing one another for a year and we chose to have her so we could be together for always. The day I found out I was pregnant I cried for I was scared of all the possibilities that could happen but hoping for the best and being so in love with this man I would go up to him everyday and ask him if he was sure he wanted a child and was ready he would always say he was ready and promised me that no matter what everything would be ok and we would always be a family. I knew I wasn’t ready but it didn’t stop me so I decided to keep her and hope for the best saying to myself everyday that everything would be ok and keeping the dream of having our own place and a few other children running through my mind. Although the pregnancy, labor and birth went wonderful and after the 24 hours of labor and 30 minutes of pushing without medication a beautiful child was laying on my chest everything was soon to fall apart. 

After 8 months of having our child in the world and trying to keep everything together and stay a family it fell apart. It was her first Christmas, she was 9 months old and her father and I haven’t been together for about a week or two now and even though I thought everything was going ok it wasn’t on his side. He soon decided we weren’t going to be together and that he wanted to change and be a different person, I never understood it or what he had meant and to this day I still don’t and it hurts. I gave him all of my love and so badly wanted and needed it to work out but like everything in my life it fell apart. 

It’s been 4 weeks now and we really haven’t talked and he has only seen his daughter once. The last time we talked he had told me to let him go because he didn’t want to be with me for several reasons and most of them were my fault in his eyes, but in mine I haven’t done anything wrong, I’ve changed some of my ways to be happier and I have done several things to stay together and to this day I am still confused and sitting here with a broken heart. I do not know what to do or where to even start. All my life everyone has disappointed me and when I let someone get close to my heart they just break it. I never wanted things to be like this and I still hope that we will be back together and that once again we would be a family.

I love this man with all of my heart and I would do anything for him and I don’t want to let him go, he means so much to me and I know I truly love him. He is my everything, my knight in shining armor and I wish that the 3 of us were still a family. Until than I don’t know what will happen and I can only hope for the best and do the best to raise our daughter and if I ever get the chance to tell him how I feel all I would say is “I love you!”. 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A sad story. Hard to understand when the love of a life leave. I like how you told the story. Children should bring people together. Some men are not ready for responsibility and to maintain a marriage is hard work. Sometime people can come back. But woman change with time. Is the door still open for love? I like this story. Thank you for sharing this excellent story.
Coyote

[B3AUTIFUllY INSAN3]

thx. its true n about me and my ex

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Classic, saddened and full of emotion, a fantastic tribute to the human physicked, well written, good read.

[AliceNWonderland]

It's a sad story. I didn't like that they broke up at the end.

[Tony]

I am sorry things turned out so rotten.
This story is horrible, and this sort of thing is the norm these days, and I feel awful about the kid and I myself am guilty of similar pecados.
It is an outpouring of emotion this, and I hope that writing out frustration helps you adjust to change as much as it does me.
And, on a personal note, my dear Sobrina....
Don't worry, you will be fine and so will Mina.