Sleeping

Every night I sleep with the man that decided to take my innocents.

Every morning I turn to kiss the man who abandoned me.

It is a constant cycle that becomes exhausting.

Falling asleep by reliving moments and waking up to being unwanted. 

Throughout the day being brain dead and throughout the night imagination that is overactive. 

Putting a weighted blanket of Lexapro hoping it drains out the trauma. Only for it to keep me laying awake at night imaging the problems. 

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[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

So sorry this happened to you
Like so many some who are raped abused
We struggle
I’ve had these experiences too
There is no answer to how I came through it
I self medicated with alcohol for years over that and my sister and friends suicide
I lived in a dream for years a nightmare of pleasure alcohol and not facing
What had happened
Why do some go thru life with no trauma
I dunno
It’s a great mystery
You are still being abused by him even now
I dont know the answer
I wish I did
I could say fine time heals
But maybe we carry it forever
Counseling may help which I’m sure you have had seeing you on lexapro
I took that hated it
Good luck
Keep writing ✍️
Sorry I f I don’t have answers xxxx
Talk anytime