Choke me

For you

I shut my mouth

choking me slowly now

resisting the urge to shout

suppressing each of my words

snuffing out each little breath

a jaded embrace

For you

I close my eyes

my thoughts withheld

just your feeble little lamb

my abilities for you to despise

no prince charming do I see

just an Antichrist

For you

I plug my ears

blocking each and every lie

 mixing truth with fictional fears

wiping the spit from my eye

deaf and arrogant

egotistical a*s

For you

I hide my hands

fist clasped tightly behind my back

fingers pressed upon my pulsating gland

ready for another truce-less attack

choking me slowly now

in peaceful solitude

Reviews

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

I understand this sort of hell intimately~ you bring its raw edges out from the victim who won't be victimized to the vivid forefront~

I was talking to someone about this sort of non relationship nightmare the other day and she had asked why I was accomodating at my own emotional peril~ I told her I wasn't ~I was appeasing~ I said something like this

when you "accomodate" someone it's because you genuinely care about their emotions and mental well being~ when you "appease" someone it's to shut their whiny f***ing mouth the f*** up already~ =)~

these mental vampires abound~ and you gotta have some extremely strong reserves to survive their merciless canines~

powerful with impact~ perfectly described~

[Audrey Howitt]

Great job on this! Great use of the form and great word choice--The emotion feels raw and very present

[Stacey Watts]

This was another very well done poem from you. It is hard enough to be stifled in life and to feel as though someone else is keeping you down. The words here are powerful and paint a very dark picture of anger and sadness. There is though that little bit of fight though. The I am not playing victim to circumstance fight. Well done.

[Monica]

"For you"...I have felt that way. Out of dislike / hatred, allowing (for a short time) someone to hurt you. The first stanza is a powerful beginning to an intense poem.
It's very well written and the imagery is quite vivid.

" deaf and arrogant
egotistical a*s"

...Unfortunately, I know this person!!

I enjoyed your poem very much!

[Shelley Holt-Lowrey]

Have we met? You do this so well. Solace to know I walk in the company of other women of courange and strength. For my son's sake... that is the refrain oft heard in my head. Thank you from the bottom of my sometimes black heart!

[SuicidePact.]

i like how you kept saying for you. it makes it so personal to the person you wrote this for, this was well written

[AK]

Vert nice..

[J.A. Stevens]

a great read :)

[Emerald Seas]

I understand the torment portrayed here. You express it well through the imagery your words entice in the reader. I think everyone can relate to this piece, having a person of similar qualities run across our path. I'm sure it wasn't meant for a chuckle but when I hit the lines
"deaf and arrogant
egotistical a*s"
I did laugh out loud. A great expression of emotion.

[screamin'ian]

Not the way I'd have liked it to read, but I understand. I enjoyed the anger, disgust, and condescension. Powerfully expressed. Submission is potent.

[Igor G. Balatsky]

'Live and let live'
Love and let love
Is my prayer.