Choke me

For you

I shut my mouth

choking me slowly now

resisting the urge to shout

suppressing each of my words

snuffing out each little breath

a jaded embrace

For you

I close my eyes

my thoughts withheld

just your feeble little lamb

my abilities for you to despise

no prince charming do I see

just an Antichrist

For you

I plug my ears

blocking each and every lie

 mixing truth with fictional fears

wiping the spit from my eye

deaf and arrogant

egotistical a*s

For you

I hide my hands

fist clasped tightly behind my back

fingers pressed upon my pulsating gland

ready for another truce-less attack

choking me slowly now

in peaceful solitude

Reviews

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

I understand this sort of hell intimately~ you bring its raw edges out from the victim who won't be victimized to the vivid forefront~

I was talking to someone about this sort of non relationship nightmare the other day and she had asked why I was accomodating at my own emotional peril~ I told her I wasn't ~I was appeasing~ I said something like this

when you "accomodate" someone it's because you genuinely care about their emotions and mental well being~ when you "appease" someone it's to shut their whiny f***ing mouth the f*** up already~ =)~

these mental vampires abound~ and you gotta have some extremely strong reserves to survive their merciless canines~

powerful with impact~ perfectly described~

[Jeff]

Incredibly raw and emotional.

[~Sammie~]

This is really good. Its good that you write what you feel :)

[ron]

This is powerful. Unless some one has been in a relationship where its easier to keep your mouth shut and your opinions to your self they won't fully understand how it feels and cuts deep inside. I think that's why I write what I do...so I can have some of my feelings heard. Thank you for sharing this is fantastic write.

[Poetic Justice]

This speaks to me about sooo many relationship I have had, why do we accommodate unhealthy relationship which take to a place out of alignment! Thankfully age lends experience and I not longer tolerate this! However to have written with flare and emotion. Felt every word. Also great title lol

[Muse]

sometimes silence...can feel like choking

[Danomaly1983]

Evocative and nicely put poem about what I interpret is someone who holds back the words and actions for someone they love. She shuts her mouth, closes her eyes, plugs her ears and hide her hands, "in peaceful solitude". Then there is something ominous about it all, as if the protagonist struggles greatly to control herself; she does seem to carry some resentment, as made clear in the phrases "no prince charming do I see / just an Antichrist", "wiping the spit from my eye" and "ready for another truce-less attack". Great poem, Muse :)

[Kleio13]

Almost everyone has a small or large distict side of them of loving pain as a release and as being one with their tormentors or the quake of the line between pleasure and pain as well.
i like this and you are not daunted to speak in your thoughts in any way.

[OBWhiteHawk]

Very nice! At first I thought this was an erotic poem about kinky asphyxiation type desires (sorry call me a stupidly sex driven man) but it so much more than that. The pain and misery of a women who is held down, held back, controlled by a man and fear of just being herself ...........the abuse he gives her and she feels powerless to take it.........heartbreaking. A powerful and emotional write.

[Aethereal]

This is a masterpiece! I must write a rhyming poem with meter on this topic, but it won't be anytime soon because I haven't yet figured out how to match the elegance of this free verse. You get a rating of one million for this one. The problem of which you write is a common psychological problem that torments people world-wide.

[s y e]

:O Wow, girl! You are amazing, this was one amazing write!! It really packs a punch! A really moving, frightening work! Keeping the light on for a couple weeks! Ha.

P.S, saw your account was closed. :'( please come back, miss you! x

~ Noodle.

[Rocans]

Interesting poem...I think of submission when I read this, but not the kind that is passive and of a weak person. Active submission which some people find gratifying-whisking away one's will to be replaced by another. It has a visceral feel to it, which I enjoyed,perhaps because of the harsh language you used...

[Muse]

Very abstract, yes this is more about mental warfare...not physical harm.